Nicki had just released her first album Pink Friday and had started her tour. She had already did the UK and she was in the US. Today would be her first day in California. She had 3 shows here. Then she moved on to other states.
"Nicki get up its time to prep for your show." SB yelled from the front of the bus.
"You could say it a little nicer SB and why? Its 8 am." She asked confused.
"Because you have interviews first and your M&G starts at 2 for this show and concert starts at 5 remember?"
"Oh. Yeah. Whatever." She scowled.
Her and SB had broken up right before tour. Things got stressful for Nicki and she took it out on him. She knew it was her fault so she treated him like shit. She wanted him back because she loved him but she never wanted to take the blame for her mistakes. She said they would be business only from now on and she never let him question it.
This killed Safaree. He loved her with everything. He wanted her back. He had told his self he wouldnt give up until he got her back.
After the show.
"Wow that was amazing you guys! Team Minaj always gives me life."
@NICKIMINAJ: Greatest show so far!!!
@NICKIMINAJ Dont get smart! *unfollows* RT @itsmarthabitch Umm its only ur first show in the US @NICKIMINAJ
@NICKIMINAJ Awe *Kisses you* Maybe next time? xoxo RT @PinkMunyBarbie My mom wouldnt let me go :( @NICKIMINAJ
She continued reading her TL When somone knocked on her door.
"Come in" She said cheerfully.
It made SB happy to know she was in a good mood.
"Hey are you busy?"
"No why whats up?"
"Oh, well its nothing really business related but I need to talk to you."
"Safaree not now. I just finished a show and ..."
"Nicki please, please listen to me.. I have been begging you to listen to me for a long time and you wont even give me the time of day. Just give me 10 minutes please."
"SB let me go take a shower and when I get out you can talk"
He walked out of the room defeated again. He knew as soon as she got out of the shower she would have another excuse. He remembered when she was a teenager she used to always tell her friends that when she was embarrassed or didnt want to talk about something in person she found it easier to write it... He thought about this and thought maybe it would be a better idea to just text her.
Safaree: Hey Nicki
Nicki: Um why are you texting me?
Safaree: I figured since you didnt want to talk in person, maybe it will be easier to just text..
Nicki: Safaree... I dont want to hurt your feelings because I love you, but I dont want to talk about anything.
Safaree: So you still love me?
Nicki: I'll never stop loving you, you know that.
Safaree: Can I come in your room?
Nicki: Goodnight Safaree.
Safaree: Goodnight Nicki. I love you.
Nicki: Love u2
Again he felt defeated but he wasnt going to give up. He had been fighting for a long time trying to get her back and he wasnt going to give up now. Tomorrow was a new day and he would just see what happens..
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Saturday, April 28, 2012
Friday, April 20, 2012
HOSPITAL
On the way to the hospital Nicki tried numerous times to reach her dad. His phone kept going to voicemail.
"Fuck!" She said out loud.
"Nicki just stop." Safaree said firmly as he snatched her phone away.
Nicki pulled up to the hospital and got out of the car and ran. She didnt wait on SB but he got out and caught up with her.
"Ima kill that nigga when I see him." SB said under his breath but loud enough for Nicki to hear.
She gave him a dirty look but kept walking fast.
"Hi I am Onika Maraj, I am looking for my 1 week old son who was transported here through the ambulance."
"Ok Ma'am whats his name?"
"Nicholas Samuels."
"Oh." The lady said with a frown.
"What the fuck you mean OH? Where's my son??!"
"Right this way."
The lady took Nicki to a private room where she saw her son. He was hooked up to like 100 machines and she saw that his eyes were covered.
She started to sob and almost fell to her knees but Safaree caught her.
"Baby no... Baby stop it'll be ok. Dont get yourself all worked up, lets just wait for the doctor." Safaree said swallowing back his tears.
"NO MY SON IS GOING TO DIE AND YOU ARE OK WITH IT? FUCK YOU SAFAREE."
"No Nicki, please stop. Thats not how I feel. Please calm down..."
Just then the doctor walked in.
"Hi Ma'am and Sir. You must be the mother and father. I am doctor Torianne and I have a few things to tell you, but first I have some questions."
"I'll answer them." Safaree spoke up.
"Ok, sir, who was the baby with during the past 2-3 hours?"
"He was with his biological father Robert Maraj."
"Now do you trust this gentleman? Has he been known to hurt children?"
"He's never hurt a baby.. Listen, I dont really care about this shit, can you please just tell us whats going on with our son.." Safaree said anxiously.
"Ok yes. I am sorry. Ok well it appears that your son has SBS.. Otherwise known as shaken baby syndrome. The person your son was in care with must have shaken him. His brain has a lot of swelling and fluid around it. His eardrums are ruptured. He is blind in both eyes, and he is practically paralyzed. I am so sorry."
Nicki sobbed. The room was silent except for her sobs. Safaree looked at her but didnt know what to do. He grabbed her and sobbed with her. He was so hurt.
"Legally we cannot keep your son on life support because he is brain dead and because he is one week old. The authorities have told me to allow you to go ahead and say goodbye to your son. I'll leave you two alone."
Nicki continued to sob her eyes out. Safaree got up and made her stand up.
"Nicki come on, we have to say goodbye."
"No. I cant. I wont. He isnt going to die."
"NICKI GET UP RIGHT NOW AND COME TO GRIPS WITH REALITY!" He hated yelling at her but she just wasnt understanding.
She got up and went over to her son. She rubbed his face and inbetween sobs she talked to her baby.
"Nicholas, I am sorry. I never should've left u with that bad man. He hurt you so bad and now I cant take it back. You know I loved you with all my heart and I will always carry a piece of you with me every day. I am going to talk to you every day too. God will tell you what I am saying. Trust me, you'll love it in Heaven. Its way better than being in earth. But please dont forget how much your mommy loves you ok? I am going to have them take you off life support tonight so you dont have to be in pain too much longer ok? I promise it'll all be over soon. Mommy wont be here when the doctors take all the cords off of you because they're making me leave. But be strong ok? Dont be scared. The doctors wont hurt you. They will help you. Mommy loves you so much baby. Daddy wants to talk to you now."
She kissed his forehead and walked away crying. She listened to what Safaree was saying.
"Hey baby boy. I know you are in a lot of pain, but trust me, you wont be soon. You're gonna go to Heaven and see Jesus. That is a man who loves you very much and he wants you to come live with him. When you get there you will be able to watch me and your mommy every day from there. I am going to miss you so much. I didnt ever see myself having a baby. But you, you've changed my mind. I loved waking up early and giving you a bottle and bathing you. I loved caring for you. I wanted you to be just like me. The outfit you're wearing now, I bought that the day your mommy told me she was habing a baby boy. I was nervous but so excited. The day you came home was the best day of my life. Today is the day you are leaving me and it is the worst day of my life. With God's help I can get through it though. I love you so much. Mommy and I have to leave now. But we will talk to you every day I promise."
He kissed his little hand and went over to Nicki and wiped her tears.
"Baby it'll be okay. We just gotta get through this. I love you."
After kissing Nicholas one last time, they walked out the hospital doors.
At 2 am they got the call that their son had got his angel wings and went to Heaven.
Nicki and Safaree layed in the bed for what seemed like days and cried.
They didnt eat, they didnt charge their phones, they didnt take showers, nothing. But Safaree wasnt about to let Nicki do this. Reguardless of how he felt and how sad he was, he wouldnt let Nicki waste her life.
"Fuck!" She said out loud.
"Nicki just stop." Safaree said firmly as he snatched her phone away.
Nicki pulled up to the hospital and got out of the car and ran. She didnt wait on SB but he got out and caught up with her.
"Ima kill that nigga when I see him." SB said under his breath but loud enough for Nicki to hear.
She gave him a dirty look but kept walking fast.
"Hi I am Onika Maraj, I am looking for my 1 week old son who was transported here through the ambulance."
"Ok Ma'am whats his name?"
"Nicholas Samuels."
"Oh." The lady said with a frown.
"What the fuck you mean OH? Where's my son??!"
"Right this way."
The lady took Nicki to a private room where she saw her son. He was hooked up to like 100 machines and she saw that his eyes were covered.
She started to sob and almost fell to her knees but Safaree caught her.
"Baby no... Baby stop it'll be ok. Dont get yourself all worked up, lets just wait for the doctor." Safaree said swallowing back his tears.
"NO MY SON IS GOING TO DIE AND YOU ARE OK WITH IT? FUCK YOU SAFAREE."
"No Nicki, please stop. Thats not how I feel. Please calm down..."
Just then the doctor walked in.
"Hi Ma'am and Sir. You must be the mother and father. I am doctor Torianne and I have a few things to tell you, but first I have some questions."
"I'll answer them." Safaree spoke up.
"Ok, sir, who was the baby with during the past 2-3 hours?"
"He was with his biological father Robert Maraj."
"Now do you trust this gentleman? Has he been known to hurt children?"
"He's never hurt a baby.. Listen, I dont really care about this shit, can you please just tell us whats going on with our son.." Safaree said anxiously.
"Ok yes. I am sorry. Ok well it appears that your son has SBS.. Otherwise known as shaken baby syndrome. The person your son was in care with must have shaken him. His brain has a lot of swelling and fluid around it. His eardrums are ruptured. He is blind in both eyes, and he is practically paralyzed. I am so sorry."
Nicki sobbed. The room was silent except for her sobs. Safaree looked at her but didnt know what to do. He grabbed her and sobbed with her. He was so hurt.
"Legally we cannot keep your son on life support because he is brain dead and because he is one week old. The authorities have told me to allow you to go ahead and say goodbye to your son. I'll leave you two alone."
Nicki continued to sob her eyes out. Safaree got up and made her stand up.
"Nicki come on, we have to say goodbye."
"No. I cant. I wont. He isnt going to die."
"NICKI GET UP RIGHT NOW AND COME TO GRIPS WITH REALITY!" He hated yelling at her but she just wasnt understanding.
She got up and went over to her son. She rubbed his face and inbetween sobs she talked to her baby.
"Nicholas, I am sorry. I never should've left u with that bad man. He hurt you so bad and now I cant take it back. You know I loved you with all my heart and I will always carry a piece of you with me every day. I am going to talk to you every day too. God will tell you what I am saying. Trust me, you'll love it in Heaven. Its way better than being in earth. But please dont forget how much your mommy loves you ok? I am going to have them take you off life support tonight so you dont have to be in pain too much longer ok? I promise it'll all be over soon. Mommy wont be here when the doctors take all the cords off of you because they're making me leave. But be strong ok? Dont be scared. The doctors wont hurt you. They will help you. Mommy loves you so much baby. Daddy wants to talk to you now."
She kissed his forehead and walked away crying. She listened to what Safaree was saying.
"Hey baby boy. I know you are in a lot of pain, but trust me, you wont be soon. You're gonna go to Heaven and see Jesus. That is a man who loves you very much and he wants you to come live with him. When you get there you will be able to watch me and your mommy every day from there. I am going to miss you so much. I didnt ever see myself having a baby. But you, you've changed my mind. I loved waking up early and giving you a bottle and bathing you. I loved caring for you. I wanted you to be just like me. The outfit you're wearing now, I bought that the day your mommy told me she was habing a baby boy. I was nervous but so excited. The day you came home was the best day of my life. Today is the day you are leaving me and it is the worst day of my life. With God's help I can get through it though. I love you so much. Mommy and I have to leave now. But we will talk to you every day I promise."
He kissed his little hand and went over to Nicki and wiped her tears.
"Baby it'll be okay. We just gotta get through this. I love you."
After kissing Nicholas one last time, they walked out the hospital doors.
At 2 am they got the call that their son had got his angel wings and went to Heaven.
Nicki and Safaree layed in the bed for what seemed like days and cried.
They didnt eat, they didnt charge their phones, they didnt take showers, nothing. But Safaree wasnt about to let Nicki do this. Reguardless of how he felt and how sad he was, he wouldnt let Nicki waste her life.
Wednesday, April 18, 2012
Anonymous Note
Nicki pulled up to her dad's house and ran out the car. She didnt even knock, she just walked in. She picked up Nick and he immediately stopped crying.
"Hey mama's boy, whats wrong? I'm here now stop all that sniffling" She said as she held him close.
"What happened Daddy?" She asked a bit concerned
"Nothing, he just wouldnt stop crying." He said.
"Oh, Ok. We can try again at the end of the week. Its fine. But its pretty late, I need to get back home and take care of him. He's cold and probably hungry. Thanks for watching him."
After that she left and buckled Nick into his carseat. She drove home and got there in 10 mins. When she got out she noticed the time.
"Hmm he's always hungry during this time. I wonder why he's not crying." She didnt think much about it after that.
As soon as she got in she made him a bottle. Sure enough he was hungry. Nicki wondered why he didnt cry but she thought probably because he had already cried all night so he was tired of crying. After she fed him she got in the bed, wrapped him up and got comfortable. She had all his formula's and diapers next to her so she wouldnt have to go far.
NEXT MORNING
Today Safaree was going back to work and Nicki had to stay home alone and take care of Nick. She wasnt scared. She just liked Safaree being around. When she got up Safaree was already gone. She picked up Nick and took him into the living room.
"Hey big boy!" He opened his eyes and looked at her, She thought he was smiling but he was too young so she didnt pay it any mind.
She undressed him to give him a bath. When she put him in the water, he cried. This was normal because babies dont really like baths, but his cry sounded different. Nicki didnt know why.
She was washing under his neck where the milk usually drips and then moved to his arms. She noticed the left side of his body was a blueish color as if it was bruised.
"Hmm.." She thought.
"The doctor said it was normal for babies to have bruising since he was squeezed coming out." She said out loud.
She put his clothes on and continued with her day.
BUZZ BUZZ
Baby: He baby how are you and Nick holding up while im gone? lol
My Love: Boy please! We are just fine! haha
Baby: Oh, I guess I wont come home early then.
My Love: No Pleeeeeaseee Come home! We miss u!!!
Baby: I only get to come home 2 hours early, but I'll be there!
My Love: Ok, make that money! Love you <3
Baby: Love you too. Kiss My Son for me. <3 Ttyl
"Aww Daddy loves you Nicholas." She said showing him the text as if he could read.
"You know you have another doctors appointment Friday right Nick? You cant be all grouchy and crying though. You have to be a good boy for the doctor, ok?"
*RING RING*
"Hello"
"Hey baby its your daddy"
"Hey Daddy whats up?"
"Nothing, your mothers trip got extended until Saturday, so I was wondering if I could try to watch Nicholas again Thursday and Friday."
"Sure you can. Friday morning I have to pick him up tho because he has a doctors appt."
"Ok thats fine. Thank you for letting me see my son."
"No problem."
She hung up.
She trusted him a little more because when he couldnt handle Nick he called her right away. (Well thats what she thought) She was looking foward to being alone with Safaree and letting her dad see his son. She didnt want to hold a grudge forever. Plus she knew if her Dad had a good relationship with Nick, he could keep him while she did shows and recorded her music.
THURSDAY NIGHT
Safaree was at work but got off at 10pm. It was 9pm now and she was taking Nick to her dad's.
"Ok Dad.. Same scenario as last time.. No bath, feed every 2 hours, call if you need anything."
"I got it Nicki. It'll be better this time."
With that she left. She went home and waited on Safaree.
ROBERTS HOUSE
Robert picked up Nicholas and held him.
"Are you gonna be nice for daddy this time?" He asked.
"I really do love you but all that crying gets to me."
As soon as he said that with aggression in his voice Nick started to cry.
"No no dont cry!!!!" he said eagerly.
He made Nick a bottle and got a diaper ready. He did everything Nicki asked him to do but Nick was still crying.
"I dont FUCKIN KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH YOU." He screamed shaking Nick again.
"WHY THE FUCK DONT YOU LOVE ME LIKE YOU LOVE NICKI? YOU ARE MINE TOO!" He shouted.
He continued to Shake the 1 week old not knowing the damage he was doing. After like 2 minutes of him shouting and shaking, Nick stopped crying.
"Yeah thats my boy.. Just calm down." He said.
Then he realized Nick wasnt breathing and he called 911. After he called 911 he put Nick in his carseat, put him by the door and drove off.
The ambulance arrived and found the baby. They immediately started to do heart pumps and CPR.
They had revived baby Nick but there wasnt much left. He wasnt moving or crying.
They grabbed the note off the couch. It said:
"The mother does not live at this residence. I am so sorry. Her # is ____________________.
Her address is _____________. The babies name is Nicholas Lloyd Samuels. Please contact his mother Onika Maraj."
The EMT called.
"Hello?"
"Hi is this Ms.Maraj?"
"Yes, this is her. I am sorry this isnt my booking number I will call you back tomo..."
"No Ma'am this is the New York Fire and Rescue Unit. We have your son Nicholas. Something has happened and whoever was watching him has fled the scene."
"WHAT? WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED?" She shouted as she started to sob.
"Ma'am your son is in very bad condition. Please just come to queens hospital right now."
She hung up.
"Safaree WAKE THE FUCK UP! MY DAD HAS DONE SOMETHING TO NICHOLAS!!!" She screamed.
"What the fuck u mean?!?!" He asked wiping his eyes.
"I dont know but come on we have to go to the hospital now."
On the way to the hospital Nicki sobbed her eyes out. She couldnt even imagine what could be going on. She was so scared and hurt and she just wanted to find out what was goin on with her son. She didnt think she could handle losing him this way.
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"Hey mama's boy, whats wrong? I'm here now stop all that sniffling" She said as she held him close.
"What happened Daddy?" She asked a bit concerned
"Nothing, he just wouldnt stop crying." He said.
"Oh, Ok. We can try again at the end of the week. Its fine. But its pretty late, I need to get back home and take care of him. He's cold and probably hungry. Thanks for watching him."
After that she left and buckled Nick into his carseat. She drove home and got there in 10 mins. When she got out she noticed the time.
"Hmm he's always hungry during this time. I wonder why he's not crying." She didnt think much about it after that.
As soon as she got in she made him a bottle. Sure enough he was hungry. Nicki wondered why he didnt cry but she thought probably because he had already cried all night so he was tired of crying. After she fed him she got in the bed, wrapped him up and got comfortable. She had all his formula's and diapers next to her so she wouldnt have to go far.
NEXT MORNING
Today Safaree was going back to work and Nicki had to stay home alone and take care of Nick. She wasnt scared. She just liked Safaree being around. When she got up Safaree was already gone. She picked up Nick and took him into the living room.
"Hey big boy!" He opened his eyes and looked at her, She thought he was smiling but he was too young so she didnt pay it any mind.
She undressed him to give him a bath. When she put him in the water, he cried. This was normal because babies dont really like baths, but his cry sounded different. Nicki didnt know why.
She was washing under his neck where the milk usually drips and then moved to his arms. She noticed the left side of his body was a blueish color as if it was bruised.
"Hmm.." She thought.
"The doctor said it was normal for babies to have bruising since he was squeezed coming out." She said out loud.
She put his clothes on and continued with her day.
BUZZ BUZZ
Baby: He baby how are you and Nick holding up while im gone? lol
My Love: Boy please! We are just fine! haha
Baby: Oh, I guess I wont come home early then.
My Love: No Pleeeeeaseee Come home! We miss u!!!
Baby: I only get to come home 2 hours early, but I'll be there!
My Love: Ok, make that money! Love you <3
Baby: Love you too. Kiss My Son for me. <3 Ttyl
"Aww Daddy loves you Nicholas." She said showing him the text as if he could read.
"You know you have another doctors appointment Friday right Nick? You cant be all grouchy and crying though. You have to be a good boy for the doctor, ok?"
*RING RING*
"Hello"
"Hey baby its your daddy"
"Hey Daddy whats up?"
"Nothing, your mothers trip got extended until Saturday, so I was wondering if I could try to watch Nicholas again Thursday and Friday."
"Sure you can. Friday morning I have to pick him up tho because he has a doctors appt."
"Ok thats fine. Thank you for letting me see my son."
"No problem."
She hung up.
She trusted him a little more because when he couldnt handle Nick he called her right away. (Well thats what she thought) She was looking foward to being alone with Safaree and letting her dad see his son. She didnt want to hold a grudge forever. Plus she knew if her Dad had a good relationship with Nick, he could keep him while she did shows and recorded her music.
THURSDAY NIGHT
Safaree was at work but got off at 10pm. It was 9pm now and she was taking Nick to her dad's.
"Ok Dad.. Same scenario as last time.. No bath, feed every 2 hours, call if you need anything."
"I got it Nicki. It'll be better this time."
With that she left. She went home and waited on Safaree.
ROBERTS HOUSE
Robert picked up Nicholas and held him.
"Are you gonna be nice for daddy this time?" He asked.
"I really do love you but all that crying gets to me."
As soon as he said that with aggression in his voice Nick started to cry.
"No no dont cry!!!!" he said eagerly.
He made Nick a bottle and got a diaper ready. He did everything Nicki asked him to do but Nick was still crying.
"I dont FUCKIN KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH YOU." He screamed shaking Nick again.
"WHY THE FUCK DONT YOU LOVE ME LIKE YOU LOVE NICKI? YOU ARE MINE TOO!" He shouted.
He continued to Shake the 1 week old not knowing the damage he was doing. After like 2 minutes of him shouting and shaking, Nick stopped crying.
"Yeah thats my boy.. Just calm down." He said.
Then he realized Nick wasnt breathing and he called 911. After he called 911 he put Nick in his carseat, put him by the door and drove off.
The ambulance arrived and found the baby. They immediately started to do heart pumps and CPR.
They had revived baby Nick but there wasnt much left. He wasnt moving or crying.
They grabbed the note off the couch. It said:
"The mother does not live at this residence. I am so sorry. Her # is ____________________.
Her address is _____________. The babies name is Nicholas Lloyd Samuels. Please contact his mother Onika Maraj."
The EMT called.
"Hello?"
"Hi is this Ms.Maraj?"
"Yes, this is her. I am sorry this isnt my booking number I will call you back tomo..."
"No Ma'am this is the New York Fire and Rescue Unit. We have your son Nicholas. Something has happened and whoever was watching him has fled the scene."
"WHAT? WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED?" She shouted as she started to sob.
"Ma'am your son is in very bad condition. Please just come to queens hospital right now."
She hung up.
"Safaree WAKE THE FUCK UP! MY DAD HAS DONE SOMETHING TO NICHOLAS!!!" She screamed.
"What the fuck u mean?!?!" He asked wiping his eyes.
"I dont know but come on we have to go to the hospital now."
On the way to the hospital Nicki sobbed her eyes out. She couldnt even imagine what could be going on. She was so scared and hurt and she just wanted to find out what was goin on with her son. She didnt think she could handle losing him this way.
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Tuesday, April 17, 2012
Day 3 (Part 3)
This chapter might be really long lol sorry
*skips to Friday*
Today Nick had a doctors appointment. Nicki wasn't sure what was going to happen but last night her and Safaree prayed VERY hard for God to show her what the plan was for their life and that what ever it was they would cope with it.
DOCTORS OFFICE
"Nicholas Samuels" The nurse called out.
"Oh, that's us." Nicki said.
Safaree picked up the car seat and headed to the back.
"OK so today is a check up. We just need to check a few things and we will bring little Nick right back."
"OK" Nicki said softly.
Safaree and Nicki didn't speak. They just sat in silence both wrapped in their thoughts not knowing the outcome of the doctors appt.
"OK Ms.Maraj, I have some GREAT news for you!" The doctor said putting emphasis on the word great.
"Well what is it?" Nicki said smiling.
"As rare as this is, it seems that Nick's heart is healing. The hole has actually gotten smaller and he should be able to live. He will need surgery in the future but right now its not a problem."
"OH MY GOD THAT'S GREAT!!!!" Nicki said jumping into Safaree's arms.
"Yay baby I am so happy!" Safaree said.
With that they left.
AT HOME.
Nicki picked up her phone.. She had to do this. If her baby was going to live she would have to tell people. She already knew who her first phone call was going to be..
"Hello"
"Hey Daddy"
"Onika! Hi How are you?"
"I am good Dad but I have something to tell you."
"Whats wrong with my princess? You can tell me anything."
"Dad, I had a baby 3 days ago and he is yours"
"Are you serious? This cant be happening... omg"
"Listen, I am not going to tell Mom yet. I have to pray and think first. When do you want to see him?"
"Well your Mother is out of town for a nursing class and she sent Maciah to Jelani's house. So you can bring him tonight. Will he be able to stay the night with me? What is his name how does he look?" Her dad was asking anxiously
"Daddy I don't know if he can stay the night.. He is only 3 days old and he's not really supposed to be out of the house. His name is Nicholas. He weighs 7 pounds 9 ounces. He's very small. He looks like me."
"OK well its up to you if you want him to stay. You can bring him now."
"OK I am on my way."
Nicki and Safaree packed up some stuff for Nick and gave him a lot of clothes just in case he did spend the night. Nicki and Safaree were really stressed out and needed the extra sleep so she was really considering it.. Besides he IS Nick's father.
AT ROBERTS HOUSE.
"Hey daddy. We're here."
"Oh my gosh Onika. He is so handsome. He looks just like you when you were a baby" He said kissing him on the forehead.
"Okay well listen I have some directions in his diaper bag for you. He eats every two hours. The formula gets two scoops of powder, the rest water. He drinks two ounces every time he eats. His diaper needs to be changed every hour. I don't want him getting a rash. He has cream in the bag and powder. Don't give him a bath today he's already had one. I know he doesn't have anywhere to sleep so I am leaving the car seat here."
"So he's spending the night?" He said cutting her off.
"Yes he can spend the night. BUT if anything happens or you have ANY problems, I don't care what time it is, call me."
"OK I got it."
"Oh, and you better get a story ready cause when Mom gets back you're gonna have to tell her where this baby came from."
Then she walked out the door.
AT NICKI N SB'S APARTMENT
"You think he can handle this Nicki?"
"Yea, I mean he's done it three times" She said almost laughing.
"Oh OK. As long as you trust it, I will too."
They got in the shower and then laid down. They were going to use this time to get extra sleep. They were exhausted. It was hard caring for a little tiny baby.
AT ROBERTS HOUSE.
Robert looked at the TV and picked up the remote. Nick started crying and he looked at the clock...Feeding time. He remember what Nicki told him and he made him a bottle. She picked him up out of the car seat and fed him. He burped him and laid him back down. Five Mins later he started crying again. Robert picked him up and changed his diaper. He put on the cream and powder just as Nicki instructed.
"Now you should be all set little one.": He said as he sat him back in the car seat.
Again within minutes he was crying again. Robert was staring to get irritated. He didn't want to bother Nicki because he didn't want her to think he didn't know what to do. He picked up Nick and felt him. He didn't feel warm or cold so he didn't change his outfit. He searched in the diaper bag for a binkie. He didn't find one.
"Hmm.." He thought.
"Maybe he wants a bath." He said out loud.
Robert got a towel and got some baby soap out of the diaper bag. Nicki packed it just in case Nick had an accident or his formula spilled on him and he got sticky. He took out a new outfit for Nick and out it by the sink. Then he gave Nick a bath, lotioned him down, put a new outfit on him and combed his hair.
"Now you should be better, right little man?" He asked Nick.
He brought Nick back into the living room and held him. After he fell asleep he put him back in his car seat. In 15 mins he woke up screaming. His little face turned red and he was shivering.
Robert picked him up and wondered what was wrong. He made another bottle and tried to feed him. He was crying so much that he wouldn't take the bottle. He held him tight and tried to rock him but that didn't work either. He got up and walked around but Nick kept crying. Robert was getting pissed. He wanted to know why didn't his son like him.
"What the fuck is wrong with you boy? I've done everything."
What he didn't know is that babies can tell when they are in danger and that's why Nick was crying. He wanted to be back with his mommy and daddy. The only 2 people he knew.
After 30 minutes of Nick's continuous crying Robert was furious. He laid Nick on the couch and went outside to cool off. When he came back in and Nick was still crying, he picked him up roughly and shook him.
"WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU?!?!" He screamed.
He dropped Nick on the couch and then called Nicki.
When Nicki answered the phone she heard the screams in the background and just said "I'm on my way" She hung up and got in the car and sped over to her dads...............................................
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Today Nick had a doctors appointment. Nicki wasn't sure what was going to happen but last night her and Safaree prayed VERY hard for God to show her what the plan was for their life and that what ever it was they would cope with it.
DOCTORS OFFICE
"Nicholas Samuels" The nurse called out.
"Oh, that's us." Nicki said.
Safaree picked up the car seat and headed to the back.
"OK so today is a check up. We just need to check a few things and we will bring little Nick right back."
"OK" Nicki said softly.
Safaree and Nicki didn't speak. They just sat in silence both wrapped in their thoughts not knowing the outcome of the doctors appt.
"OK Ms.Maraj, I have some GREAT news for you!" The doctor said putting emphasis on the word great.
"Well what is it?" Nicki said smiling.
"As rare as this is, it seems that Nick's heart is healing. The hole has actually gotten smaller and he should be able to live. He will need surgery in the future but right now its not a problem."
"OH MY GOD THAT'S GREAT!!!!" Nicki said jumping into Safaree's arms.
"Yay baby I am so happy!" Safaree said.
With that they left.
AT HOME.
Nicki picked up her phone.. She had to do this. If her baby was going to live she would have to tell people. She already knew who her first phone call was going to be..
"Hello"
"Hey Daddy"
"Onika! Hi How are you?"
"I am good Dad but I have something to tell you."
"Whats wrong with my princess? You can tell me anything."
"Dad, I had a baby 3 days ago and he is yours"
"Are you serious? This cant be happening... omg"
"Listen, I am not going to tell Mom yet. I have to pray and think first. When do you want to see him?"
"Well your Mother is out of town for a nursing class and she sent Maciah to Jelani's house. So you can bring him tonight. Will he be able to stay the night with me? What is his name how does he look?" Her dad was asking anxiously
"Daddy I don't know if he can stay the night.. He is only 3 days old and he's not really supposed to be out of the house. His name is Nicholas. He weighs 7 pounds 9 ounces. He's very small. He looks like me."
"OK well its up to you if you want him to stay. You can bring him now."
"OK I am on my way."
Nicki and Safaree packed up some stuff for Nick and gave him a lot of clothes just in case he did spend the night. Nicki and Safaree were really stressed out and needed the extra sleep so she was really considering it.. Besides he IS Nick's father.
AT ROBERTS HOUSE.
"Hey daddy. We're here."
"Oh my gosh Onika. He is so handsome. He looks just like you when you were a baby" He said kissing him on the forehead.
"Okay well listen I have some directions in his diaper bag for you. He eats every two hours. The formula gets two scoops of powder, the rest water. He drinks two ounces every time he eats. His diaper needs to be changed every hour. I don't want him getting a rash. He has cream in the bag and powder. Don't give him a bath today he's already had one. I know he doesn't have anywhere to sleep so I am leaving the car seat here."
"So he's spending the night?" He said cutting her off.
"Yes he can spend the night. BUT if anything happens or you have ANY problems, I don't care what time it is, call me."
"OK I got it."
"Oh, and you better get a story ready cause when Mom gets back you're gonna have to tell her where this baby came from."
Then she walked out the door.
AT NICKI N SB'S APARTMENT
"You think he can handle this Nicki?"
"Yea, I mean he's done it three times" She said almost laughing.
"Oh OK. As long as you trust it, I will too."
They got in the shower and then laid down. They were going to use this time to get extra sleep. They were exhausted. It was hard caring for a little tiny baby.
AT ROBERTS HOUSE.
Robert looked at the TV and picked up the remote. Nick started crying and he looked at the clock...Feeding time. He remember what Nicki told him and he made him a bottle. She picked him up out of the car seat and fed him. He burped him and laid him back down. Five Mins later he started crying again. Robert picked him up and changed his diaper. He put on the cream and powder just as Nicki instructed.
"Now you should be all set little one.": He said as he sat him back in the car seat.
Again within minutes he was crying again. Robert was staring to get irritated. He didn't want to bother Nicki because he didn't want her to think he didn't know what to do. He picked up Nick and felt him. He didn't feel warm or cold so he didn't change his outfit. He searched in the diaper bag for a binkie. He didn't find one.
"Hmm.." He thought.
"Maybe he wants a bath." He said out loud.
Robert got a towel and got some baby soap out of the diaper bag. Nicki packed it just in case Nick had an accident or his formula spilled on him and he got sticky. He took out a new outfit for Nick and out it by the sink. Then he gave Nick a bath, lotioned him down, put a new outfit on him and combed his hair.
"Now you should be better, right little man?" He asked Nick.
He brought Nick back into the living room and held him. After he fell asleep he put him back in his car seat. In 15 mins he woke up screaming. His little face turned red and he was shivering.
Robert picked him up and wondered what was wrong. He made another bottle and tried to feed him. He was crying so much that he wouldn't take the bottle. He held him tight and tried to rock him but that didn't work either. He got up and walked around but Nick kept crying. Robert was getting pissed. He wanted to know why didn't his son like him.
"What the fuck is wrong with you boy? I've done everything."
What he didn't know is that babies can tell when they are in danger and that's why Nick was crying. He wanted to be back with his mommy and daddy. The only 2 people he knew.
After 30 minutes of Nick's continuous crying Robert was furious. He laid Nick on the couch and went outside to cool off. When he came back in and Nick was still crying, he picked him up roughly and shook him.
"WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU?!?!" He screamed.
He dropped Nick on the couch and then called Nicki.
When Nicki answered the phone she heard the screams in the background and just said "I'm on my way" She hung up and got in the car and sped over to her dads...............................................
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3 Days (Part 2)
Nicki woke up to the sound of SB snoaring and looked at the clock. 4:45am. She got up and fixed Nicholas a bottle.
"Hey My little Punkin" She said as she held him close.
"Mommy missed you all night and I dreamed about you. I just love you so much."
She sat on the bed and held him while she fed him. Just then SB sat up.
"Hey Nic and Nick" They both laughed.
"Goodmorning baby" She said to SB
"How is he? He looks good"
"He's good.. Just hungry I guess."
"Nicki...." He grabbed Nick and layed him on the bed and took her hands.
"You do know he isnt going to be with us for long, right? I dont want you sitting here trying to convince yourself that you are going to have a son and raise him forever. I had a dream last night. It was bad and it was good. I think God was showing me."
"What was the dream about?" She asked.
"Well we took Nic to his doctors appointment and they told us his heart was barely beating.. That night he died. We didnt have a big funeral because no one really knew. Only people who came were Me, You, Candice, & Lauren. But then at the end of the dream, me and you had flown to London. When we got there EVERYONE was waiting for us. We got out of our cars and fans and paparazzi was everywhere. We could barely move. Everyone was screaming your name and your music was playing in the background. Then I saw Jay Z and Kanye rapping with you.. Nicki... God is just showing us that this is a set back but we are going to have a really HUGE come back. You are going to be able to fulfill your dreams and make a living for you and your family. I will be there with you every step of the way. So I just want you to accept this and move on. Dont take it so hard. Nicholas will be with God and he'll look down on you and remind you how beautiful you are and how proud he is of you. I am pretty sure you dont want to look at Nick and be reminded of your dad every single time.. Its okay Nicki. We'll get through this."
Just then Nicki started sobbing. SB grabbed her and held her. He knew she understood she just needed time. He picked up Nicholas and finished feeding him. They went back to sleep until time to feed Nick again and then they got up. They picked up some clutter around the house because Lauren and Candi were on their way. They planned on telling them what was going on.
2 HOURS LATER
Candi and Lauren had been there for 30 minutes and were crying over how handsome little Nicholas was and how lucky Nicki was to have him. Nicki thought this was the time to tell them. She didnt want them to be attached.
"Guys I have something to tell you." She said sounding scared.
"Whats up" Candice asked.
"Ok well, I dont want you guys to get too attached to Nicholas because Thursday or Friday he will be leaving us. I am sorry I didnt tell you guys sooner." She teared up at the thought of her son dying.
"WHAT?! YOU GAVE HIM UP FOR ADOPTION? WHAT KIND OF SHIT.."
Candice slapped Lauren in her mouth.
"No. thats not what I mean.. Nicholas has a hole in his heart and he's not expected to live past this week. I am spending all my time with him, but I have accepted the fact that he's going back to live with God. I dont want him on the earth if he is in pain. He can see and hear and move but he doesnt breath good and his chest hurts him. I dont want that. The doctors said 2% of babies with this diagnosis live, but they are never strong enough to walk, crawl, or sit up on their own and they die by the age of 3. I would rather him go now so he doesnt have to live a life of struggle."
Lauren, Nicki, and Candice cried together. They all agreed on what was happening but they couldnt believe it. Candi and Lauren took turns holding Nick and then they said their goodbye's. They left and Nicki and SB just sat in the living room. While Candice and Lauren were keeping Nicki company, Safaree had taken down the crib and started putting away the baby blankets and clothes. He already had stuff in boxes that he was taking down to the Salvation Army for people in need. He wanted to make this process as easy as possible for Nicki. He hated seeing her sad. He went into his room and shut the door. He needed a minute to write down his thoughts..
SB's Journal
I never really write in this thing.. Nicki gave it to me on my birthday. She told me its good to write down thoughts when you are going through a hard time.. I figured I would try it. I can handle this. I dont know if Nicki can. I am trying to make it easy for her because she has a big future. She is gonna do her senior school work this year and graduate early. Then we are going to work on her music. She has a lot of potential and because of the dream I had, I KNOW she will make it. I just have to help her make it happen. Tomorrow is Thursday.. That means Baby Nick's life is nearing an end. All I can do is hope for the best. My mom told me last night that God said in the bible he will never bring us to something that we cant handle. I believe her. I just have to wait and see. I love Nicki. I love my life.
Lets see what happens
SB.
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"Hey My little Punkin" She said as she held him close.
"Mommy missed you all night and I dreamed about you. I just love you so much."
She sat on the bed and held him while she fed him. Just then SB sat up.
"Hey Nic and Nick" They both laughed.
"Goodmorning baby" She said to SB
"How is he? He looks good"
"He's good.. Just hungry I guess."
"Nicki...." He grabbed Nick and layed him on the bed and took her hands.
"You do know he isnt going to be with us for long, right? I dont want you sitting here trying to convince yourself that you are going to have a son and raise him forever. I had a dream last night. It was bad and it was good. I think God was showing me."
"What was the dream about?" She asked.
"Well we took Nic to his doctors appointment and they told us his heart was barely beating.. That night he died. We didnt have a big funeral because no one really knew. Only people who came were Me, You, Candice, & Lauren. But then at the end of the dream, me and you had flown to London. When we got there EVERYONE was waiting for us. We got out of our cars and fans and paparazzi was everywhere. We could barely move. Everyone was screaming your name and your music was playing in the background. Then I saw Jay Z and Kanye rapping with you.. Nicki... God is just showing us that this is a set back but we are going to have a really HUGE come back. You are going to be able to fulfill your dreams and make a living for you and your family. I will be there with you every step of the way. So I just want you to accept this and move on. Dont take it so hard. Nicholas will be with God and he'll look down on you and remind you how beautiful you are and how proud he is of you. I am pretty sure you dont want to look at Nick and be reminded of your dad every single time.. Its okay Nicki. We'll get through this."
Just then Nicki started sobbing. SB grabbed her and held her. He knew she understood she just needed time. He picked up Nicholas and finished feeding him. They went back to sleep until time to feed Nick again and then they got up. They picked up some clutter around the house because Lauren and Candi were on their way. They planned on telling them what was going on.
2 HOURS LATER
Candi and Lauren had been there for 30 minutes and were crying over how handsome little Nicholas was and how lucky Nicki was to have him. Nicki thought this was the time to tell them. She didnt want them to be attached.
"Guys I have something to tell you." She said sounding scared.
"Whats up" Candice asked.
"Ok well, I dont want you guys to get too attached to Nicholas because Thursday or Friday he will be leaving us. I am sorry I didnt tell you guys sooner." She teared up at the thought of her son dying.
"WHAT?! YOU GAVE HIM UP FOR ADOPTION? WHAT KIND OF SHIT.."
Candice slapped Lauren in her mouth.
"No. thats not what I mean.. Nicholas has a hole in his heart and he's not expected to live past this week. I am spending all my time with him, but I have accepted the fact that he's going back to live with God. I dont want him on the earth if he is in pain. He can see and hear and move but he doesnt breath good and his chest hurts him. I dont want that. The doctors said 2% of babies with this diagnosis live, but they are never strong enough to walk, crawl, or sit up on their own and they die by the age of 3. I would rather him go now so he doesnt have to live a life of struggle."
Lauren, Nicki, and Candice cried together. They all agreed on what was happening but they couldnt believe it. Candi and Lauren took turns holding Nick and then they said their goodbye's. They left and Nicki and SB just sat in the living room. While Candice and Lauren were keeping Nicki company, Safaree had taken down the crib and started putting away the baby blankets and clothes. He already had stuff in boxes that he was taking down to the Salvation Army for people in need. He wanted to make this process as easy as possible for Nicki. He hated seeing her sad. He went into his room and shut the door. He needed a minute to write down his thoughts..
SB's Journal
I never really write in this thing.. Nicki gave it to me on my birthday. She told me its good to write down thoughts when you are going through a hard time.. I figured I would try it. I can handle this. I dont know if Nicki can. I am trying to make it easy for her because she has a big future. She is gonna do her senior school work this year and graduate early. Then we are going to work on her music. She has a lot of potential and because of the dream I had, I KNOW she will make it. I just have to help her make it happen. Tomorrow is Thursday.. That means Baby Nick's life is nearing an end. All I can do is hope for the best. My mom told me last night that God said in the bible he will never bring us to something that we cant handle. I believe her. I just have to wait and see. I love Nicki. I love my life.
Lets see what happens
SB.
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Wednesday, April 11, 2012
3 Days. (PART 1)
Safaree and Nicki didnt know what was going to happen these next 3 days. They were semi happy that they would be with their son but sad that he would be leaving soon. They tried to make everything as happy as possible.
"Hi baby!" Nicki said as she picked up Nicholas.
"The doctor told us you can hear but you cant respond in any way. I hope you get better for mommy and daddy. You are our king. You mean the world to us and you are amazing. We love you." Nicki said this and started tearing up.
"Safaree do you think he will make it?" She asked.
"I dont know Nicki we will have to put it in God's Hands."
"I already did baby."
"Then we wait."
Nicki went in Nicholas's room and changed his diaper. When she was done she held him close and rocked him. She looked up and Safaree was bringing in a bottle of warm milk. He took Nicholas and fed him. Nicki was letting him do more because she felt in her mind that he would make it thru this and there is no need to hog him.
Today they were just going to stay home. They couldnt take Nick anywhere because he was 1 day old and Nicki wasnt even supposed to be out of the bed. The whole day she loved and kissed on Nick. She told him stories, gave him a bath, rocked him, and fed him. She was cherishing every moment. She didnt know how she would let him go, but in the back of her mind she knew she would have to.
Nicki got up and started straightening the house because tomorrow Lauren and Candice were coming over to see baby Nick. They didnt know he had a heart problem but Nicki planned to tell them quick. She had been hiding so many things that she just wanted to get them all out. She wanted to tell her mom everything and put it all out in the open.. She really was considering it.....
Dear Diary,
Today has been both good and bad. Good is I had my son. Bad is he has a hole in his heart. The doctors said his heart would probably give out in the next three days. I am so scared. I keep him by my side at all times because I want to know he is ok. Tomorrow Candice and Lauren will see him. I know they are going to cry their eyes out when they find out the news. I am so terrified to tell them. I am even more terrified to see how Safaree will act when Nicholas passes away. I am trying to mentally prepare myself now. I have to be strong for Safaree... He has done nothing but love me and be there for me. I am really sad but now is the time to stand up.
Xoxo Nicki.
Safaree put her diary down after reading it... WOW she really thinks I am going to take this harder than her. She really thinks her baby is going to make it... I have to have a talk with her tomorrow before Candi & Lauren get here.
*Sigh*
He took a deep breath and wrapped his arm around Nicki and Nicholas and drifted off to sleep.
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"Hi baby!" Nicki said as she picked up Nicholas.
"The doctor told us you can hear but you cant respond in any way. I hope you get better for mommy and daddy. You are our king. You mean the world to us and you are amazing. We love you." Nicki said this and started tearing up.
"Safaree do you think he will make it?" She asked.
"I dont know Nicki we will have to put it in God's Hands."
"I already did baby."
"Then we wait."
Nicki went in Nicholas's room and changed his diaper. When she was done she held him close and rocked him. She looked up and Safaree was bringing in a bottle of warm milk. He took Nicholas and fed him. Nicki was letting him do more because she felt in her mind that he would make it thru this and there is no need to hog him.
Today they were just going to stay home. They couldnt take Nick anywhere because he was 1 day old and Nicki wasnt even supposed to be out of the bed. The whole day she loved and kissed on Nick. She told him stories, gave him a bath, rocked him, and fed him. She was cherishing every moment. She didnt know how she would let him go, but in the back of her mind she knew she would have to.
Nicki got up and started straightening the house because tomorrow Lauren and Candice were coming over to see baby Nick. They didnt know he had a heart problem but Nicki planned to tell them quick. She had been hiding so many things that she just wanted to get them all out. She wanted to tell her mom everything and put it all out in the open.. She really was considering it.....
Dear Diary,
Today has been both good and bad. Good is I had my son. Bad is he has a hole in his heart. The doctors said his heart would probably give out in the next three days. I am so scared. I keep him by my side at all times because I want to know he is ok. Tomorrow Candice and Lauren will see him. I know they are going to cry their eyes out when they find out the news. I am so terrified to tell them. I am even more terrified to see how Safaree will act when Nicholas passes away. I am trying to mentally prepare myself now. I have to be strong for Safaree... He has done nothing but love me and be there for me. I am really sad but now is the time to stand up.
Xoxo Nicki.
Safaree put her diary down after reading it... WOW she really thinks I am going to take this harder than her. She really thinks her baby is going to make it... I have to have a talk with her tomorrow before Candi & Lauren get here.
*Sigh*
He took a deep breath and wrapped his arm around Nicki and Nicholas and drifted off to sleep.
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Tuesday, April 10, 2012
Worst Days Of Our Lives..
Safaree dropped to his knees and sobbed. He didnt know what was wrong with Nicholas but but he knew it was something horrible and he didnt want to tell Nicki. Just then the doctor walked out.
"Sir are you the father?"
Safaree stood up and wiped his tears.
"Yes sir, whats going on?" He asked
"Your son's heart seems to have failed. He has a hole in his heart. We have put him on life support but he is brain dead. We will allow you 72 hours to say good bye to him and have any family come and see him before we take him off, Sir I am very sorry."
Safaree could feel his knees giving out. He sat on the floor and put his head in his hands.
SAFAREE POV
God, what have we done to deserve this? I am sorry for everything and I ask for forgiveness on me and Nicki's behalf. Please God help me to find some way to tell Nicki and please help her to be strong. I love you for the life you have given us and I am not being unappriciative. If it is your will God please save my son. If not, just make sure that his mommy and daddy love him very much and give him a very special place in Heaven. In Jesus Name, Amen.
Why me? He thought.. I dont know how I am going to tell Nicki that her son will be dead befor the end of the week. How am I even gonna take this? We have all the baby stuff at home and we're not going to have a baby there. Safaree started to feel sick.
"Um Sir, your son is in the ICU nursery and you can go see him. Then you can bring his mother."
"Thank You Doctor"
Safaree jumped up and ran to the nursery where he saw Nicholas hooked up to a lot of machines. He picked him up and sat down in the chair.
"Hey Nicholas... I think you can hear me, but I am not sure. I just want to tell you that I know I am not your real daddy but I wanted to be. I wanted to take you home and take care of you. I bought you a whole bunch of stuff, I loved you when you were still in your mommies tummy. I know you havent seen your mommy yet but I am going to bring her in here. I just have to warn you that she is going to be very sad to see you hooked up to all these machines. I prayed and asked God if maybe you could stay with us. I dont know what he is going to do yet I have to wait and see. But just know that daddy and mommy love you ok?"
With that he put baby Nicholas down and started what he felt like was the longest walk of his life.
When he got to the room Nicki was already standing up.
"Safaree what.."
"Nicki you need to come see your son" He cut her off.
"Whats wrong" She asked concerned
"He has a hole in his heart and he is allowed to be on life support for 72 hours then they have to take him off." Safaree started trying to hold back his tears
"My son is going to...die?" She sobbed.
"Nicki please hold yourself together until you say bye...Please"
He grabbed her hand and took her to the nursery. She ran to her son and picked him up. Safaree stood to the side to give her privacy.
"Baby, hi, its your mommy. You're gonna be ok. You're just sick right now. You'll get better for your mommy though right? I love you so much. We have so many toys for you at home. Your aunties Lauren and Candice are waiting on you! Oh, and you are making your daddy really sad. I have never seen him cry before. That shows me how much he loves you. You have his middle name. Its Lloyd. I love that name. He didnt want your first name to be Safaree because he wanted both of our names to be a part of your name so we chose Nicholas Lloyd. I have a big feeling that you will get better because mommy loves you. I am going to talk to the doctor and see what he says. Mommy will be right back and Daddy will be with you though."
She kissed his forehead and layed him down.
"Safaree I am going to talk to the doctor. Stay with Nick please." She said.
"Ok." He said kind of surprised.
Wow.. She doesnt think that he is going to die. Its going to hit her so hard.
"Hi Mr Johnson, I am here to talk to you about my son Nicholas Samuels.."
"Oh, Hi Ms Maraj. Your son has a hole in his heart so he is on life support. He can stay on for 72 hours. After that you can take him home and keep him there. He should be able to live for 3-4 days. After that I am afraid his heart will give out. It will be too weak."
Nicki started to sob.
"Can we take him home today?" Nicki said through her sobs.
"Sure. I will get the paper work ready." He grabbed her shoulder. "You can do this, you're a strong woman"
She thanked him and walked to her room. She knew Safaree was with Nicholas so she went in her room and put on her clothes to leave. She grabbed Nick's diaper bag and carseat. She walked to the nursery.
"Nicki what are you doing?"
"The doctor said we can take him home. He will be with us for 3-4 days.. I just dont want to be here."
LATER
Safaree pulled up to the house. He did not want to bring Nicholas home because they would both get attached. He could already tell Nicki was because she wouldnt let him do anything. She fed him, changed his diaper, and buckled his car seat. Safaree just watched. Nicki got out of the car and quickly went to the other side to get the carseat. Safaree stepped in front of her.
"Let me get this Nicki." He said sternly
"No Safaree I got it."
"You cannot be lifting things, I will get it."
She moved out of the way and Safaree got their son.
They went inside to live the next 3 days like they were their last. Safaree couldnt believe this was happening to them. She was 18 and he was 23.
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"Sir are you the father?"
Safaree stood up and wiped his tears.
"Yes sir, whats going on?" He asked
"Your son's heart seems to have failed. He has a hole in his heart. We have put him on life support but he is brain dead. We will allow you 72 hours to say good bye to him and have any family come and see him before we take him off, Sir I am very sorry."
Safaree could feel his knees giving out. He sat on the floor and put his head in his hands.
SAFAREE POV
God, what have we done to deserve this? I am sorry for everything and I ask for forgiveness on me and Nicki's behalf. Please God help me to find some way to tell Nicki and please help her to be strong. I love you for the life you have given us and I am not being unappriciative. If it is your will God please save my son. If not, just make sure that his mommy and daddy love him very much and give him a very special place in Heaven. In Jesus Name, Amen.
Why me? He thought.. I dont know how I am going to tell Nicki that her son will be dead befor the end of the week. How am I even gonna take this? We have all the baby stuff at home and we're not going to have a baby there. Safaree started to feel sick.
"Um Sir, your son is in the ICU nursery and you can go see him. Then you can bring his mother."
"Thank You Doctor"
Safaree jumped up and ran to the nursery where he saw Nicholas hooked up to a lot of machines. He picked him up and sat down in the chair.
"Hey Nicholas... I think you can hear me, but I am not sure. I just want to tell you that I know I am not your real daddy but I wanted to be. I wanted to take you home and take care of you. I bought you a whole bunch of stuff, I loved you when you were still in your mommies tummy. I know you havent seen your mommy yet but I am going to bring her in here. I just have to warn you that she is going to be very sad to see you hooked up to all these machines. I prayed and asked God if maybe you could stay with us. I dont know what he is going to do yet I have to wait and see. But just know that daddy and mommy love you ok?"
With that he put baby Nicholas down and started what he felt like was the longest walk of his life.
When he got to the room Nicki was already standing up.
"Safaree what.."
"Nicki you need to come see your son" He cut her off.
"Whats wrong" She asked concerned
"He has a hole in his heart and he is allowed to be on life support for 72 hours then they have to take him off." Safaree started trying to hold back his tears
"My son is going to...die?" She sobbed.
"Nicki please hold yourself together until you say bye...Please"
He grabbed her hand and took her to the nursery. She ran to her son and picked him up. Safaree stood to the side to give her privacy.
"Baby, hi, its your mommy. You're gonna be ok. You're just sick right now. You'll get better for your mommy though right? I love you so much. We have so many toys for you at home. Your aunties Lauren and Candice are waiting on you! Oh, and you are making your daddy really sad. I have never seen him cry before. That shows me how much he loves you. You have his middle name. Its Lloyd. I love that name. He didnt want your first name to be Safaree because he wanted both of our names to be a part of your name so we chose Nicholas Lloyd. I have a big feeling that you will get better because mommy loves you. I am going to talk to the doctor and see what he says. Mommy will be right back and Daddy will be with you though."
She kissed his forehead and layed him down.
"Safaree I am going to talk to the doctor. Stay with Nick please." She said.
"Ok." He said kind of surprised.
Wow.. She doesnt think that he is going to die. Its going to hit her so hard.
"Hi Mr Johnson, I am here to talk to you about my son Nicholas Samuels.."
"Oh, Hi Ms Maraj. Your son has a hole in his heart so he is on life support. He can stay on for 72 hours. After that you can take him home and keep him there. He should be able to live for 3-4 days. After that I am afraid his heart will give out. It will be too weak."
Nicki started to sob.
"Can we take him home today?" Nicki said through her sobs.
"Sure. I will get the paper work ready." He grabbed her shoulder. "You can do this, you're a strong woman"
She thanked him and walked to her room. She knew Safaree was with Nicholas so she went in her room and put on her clothes to leave. She grabbed Nick's diaper bag and carseat. She walked to the nursery.
"Nicki what are you doing?"
"The doctor said we can take him home. He will be with us for 3-4 days.. I just dont want to be here."
LATER
Safaree pulled up to the house. He did not want to bring Nicholas home because they would both get attached. He could already tell Nicki was because she wouldnt let him do anything. She fed him, changed his diaper, and buckled his car seat. Safaree just watched. Nicki got out of the car and quickly went to the other side to get the carseat. Safaree stepped in front of her.
"Let me get this Nicki." He said sternly
"No Safaree I got it."
"You cannot be lifting things, I will get it."
She moved out of the way and Safaree got their son.
They went inside to live the next 3 days like they were their last. Safaree couldnt believe this was happening to them. She was 18 and he was 23.
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Sunday, April 8, 2012
We can do this....
"Nicki you can do this" Safaree pleaded.
"I cant... Like how am I gonna have MY DADS BABY"
"Nicki I told you we're gonna do this. Dont worry I am here for you every step of the way."
Months Later...APRIL
Nicki was now huge and never left the house.. Her mom never saw her because she "worked too much"
No one knew about the baby except Safaree and Nicki's close friends. Only few people knew the truth..
Safaree had to help her do everything.. Get dressed, put on shoes, take showers, everything. He didnt care. He loved her so much and accepted this baby to be his. He knew that DNA wise it wasnt his but he was going to father the baby so in one way it was his. They had been to a lot of doctors appointments and now Nicki was going to one every week since it was getting so close. Nicki was ready for the baby. She got over the fact that it was her fathers and she loved her baby very much. He was very active and was always kicking. She couldnt wait for him to get here so she could dress him up and show him off. He was already her little man.
"Hey baby" Safaree said coming into the room.
"Hey" She said almost whining.
"Whats wrong Nicki?" He said getting on his knees next to the bed.
"Nothing my stomach and back just hurt really really bad." Nicki cried.
"Well what do we do? Do you need to go to the hospital?" Safaree asked.
"No not yet but I am going to take a bath and you call the doctor."
"Ok."
Nicki got up and ran her bath water while Safaree grabbed his phone and called the doctor. She got some sweat pants and a T shirt out because she had a feeling she would be making a trip to the hospital just to make sure everything was ok.
Safaree came in and spoke.
"Nic the doctor said you need to go to labor and delivery to make sure you're not going into labor."
"I knew that was coming" She mumbled.
"Ok well get I'll get all the stuff ready. Take your time."
Really Safaree wasnt nervous at all. He was spazzing. He couldnt wait to see Nicki have her baby and be a mom. Yeah they were young and had their flaws but Safaree would do anything he had to do to support them. He was ready to be a dad and a great boyfriend. He grabbed everything he thought they needed. Carseat first. Then blankets, diaper bag, binkies, outfits, bottles, diapers, wipes, powder, socks, mittens...ect. He wanted to be prepared. He went in Nicki's room and grabbed 3 outfits and 5 pairs of underwear (he knew that after the baby she would be bleeding and she hated to feel dirty so he brought extra) He felt like he was ready.
"Baby I am ready. I really think its time. My stomach is cramping up." Nicki said clenching.
"Ok baby, well I put everything in the car already and its all good to go.
"Lets go"
They both got into the car and Nicki was getting nervous. Safaree read her like a book so he rubbed her belly. Its gonna be ok Nicki dont worry. They named their baby Nicholas Lloyd Samuels.
Safaree was so ready. They pulled up to the hospital and checked in. They took her straight to labor and delivery. She layed in the bed and the doctor told her she had to start pushing in 20 minutes. This was the longest 20 minutes of her life. Safaree was sweating a little because he was nervous now but he kept composure for Nicki.
"Ok Ms.Maraj we see you are 10 cm dialated so we are ready, how are you feeling?"
"Horrible.. I just want to get it over with. I am so glad I got the epidural because I dont think I could have taken it."
"Ok Sir, we are going to have you stand here and hold one of her legs ok."
"Ok."
By this point Safaree was freaking out. He wanted to hold Nicki's hand and reassure her but he was now holding her leg looking at where the baby would be coming out.
"Ok give us a big push mama."
"1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9,...10. Breathe."
"UGHHHHHHH" Nicki screamed.
"OMGGGGGG THIS IS SO HORRIBLE." She yelled.
"Another push, you can do it.
"AHHHHHHHHHH"
10 Minutes went by and it was almost over.
"NICKI OMG BABE I SEE HIS HEAD!!!! HE HAS A LOT OF HAIR OMG PUSH PUSH PUSH!"
Nicki gave another push and the head was out. The doctor grabbed the baby and pulled him out. He was so little. He was light and had a lot of hair. Nicki saw him when the doctor picked him up. She immediately started crying. He was so beautiful. Safaree cut the cord and they took the baby to the back.
They were suctioning the snot and blood out of his nose and throat when they noticed his heart rate dropped severely. They hooked him up to machines and gave him oxygen. They didnt know what had happened. Sometimes babies get excited or dont know how to react when they get to the real world. Thats what they thought. They wrapped him up and brought him to Nicki and Safaree.
"Omg Nicki he is so handsome. He looks just like you." Safaree said.
"Hi Nicholas, you are so beautiful...mamas baby." She said as she kissed him
"Umm Ms. Maraj, we have to take Nicholas back for some testing. There seems to be a problem with his heart."
"WHAT?" Nicki Screamed.
"Calm down ma'am. He is going to be fine we jus have to run some tests." With that they took Nicholas.
"Omg Safaree what could be wrong??" "Its my fault he is sick."
"No Nicki.. Stop. Just wait until they find out."
"Safaree go with them please."
"Ok baby I love you." He kissed her forehead and walked out.
Nicki was in a panic.. She was scared and crying.
IN THE BABIES WARD
Safaree ran to see where Nicholas was... He heard a baby cry and thought he recognized it. He stopped and opened the door.
"Sir you cant be in here"
"Thats my son. I want to know whats going on."
"We are running tests but it is steril in here you have to stand outside and wait."
"He went outside and looked in the window."
He heard a loud beep and saw that the doctors seemed stressed. He tried to open the door to see what was going on but the doctor had locked it. He looked and saw Nicki's son laying lifeless on the metal table. He started to panic and scream.
"LET ME IN THIS FUCKING ROOM. WHAT HAVE U DONE TO MY SON? LET ME IN RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" He screamed.
Nicki heard him and started to panic. She unhooked all her machines and got up. She was in soo much pain but had to find out where Safaree was. As soon as she stepped out, the nurse ran to her and took her back to her bed.
"Ma'am you cannot be up walking around. We will be in here shortly." She left the room.
"LET ME IN RIGHT NOW." He screamed
"PLEASE LET ME SEE MY SON!"
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"I cant... Like how am I gonna have MY DADS BABY"
"Nicki I told you we're gonna do this. Dont worry I am here for you every step of the way."
Months Later...APRIL
Nicki was now huge and never left the house.. Her mom never saw her because she "worked too much"
No one knew about the baby except Safaree and Nicki's close friends. Only few people knew the truth..
Safaree had to help her do everything.. Get dressed, put on shoes, take showers, everything. He didnt care. He loved her so much and accepted this baby to be his. He knew that DNA wise it wasnt his but he was going to father the baby so in one way it was his. They had been to a lot of doctors appointments and now Nicki was going to one every week since it was getting so close. Nicki was ready for the baby. She got over the fact that it was her fathers and she loved her baby very much. He was very active and was always kicking. She couldnt wait for him to get here so she could dress him up and show him off. He was already her little man.
"Hey baby" Safaree said coming into the room.
"Hey" She said almost whining.
"Whats wrong Nicki?" He said getting on his knees next to the bed.
"Nothing my stomach and back just hurt really really bad." Nicki cried.
"Well what do we do? Do you need to go to the hospital?" Safaree asked.
"No not yet but I am going to take a bath and you call the doctor."
"Ok."
Nicki got up and ran her bath water while Safaree grabbed his phone and called the doctor. She got some sweat pants and a T shirt out because she had a feeling she would be making a trip to the hospital just to make sure everything was ok.
Safaree came in and spoke.
"Nic the doctor said you need to go to labor and delivery to make sure you're not going into labor."
"I knew that was coming" She mumbled.
"Ok well get I'll get all the stuff ready. Take your time."
Really Safaree wasnt nervous at all. He was spazzing. He couldnt wait to see Nicki have her baby and be a mom. Yeah they were young and had their flaws but Safaree would do anything he had to do to support them. He was ready to be a dad and a great boyfriend. He grabbed everything he thought they needed. Carseat first. Then blankets, diaper bag, binkies, outfits, bottles, diapers, wipes, powder, socks, mittens...ect. He wanted to be prepared. He went in Nicki's room and grabbed 3 outfits and 5 pairs of underwear (he knew that after the baby she would be bleeding and she hated to feel dirty so he brought extra) He felt like he was ready.
"Baby I am ready. I really think its time. My stomach is cramping up." Nicki said clenching.
"Ok baby, well I put everything in the car already and its all good to go.
"Lets go"
They both got into the car and Nicki was getting nervous. Safaree read her like a book so he rubbed her belly. Its gonna be ok Nicki dont worry. They named their baby Nicholas Lloyd Samuels.
Safaree was so ready. They pulled up to the hospital and checked in. They took her straight to labor and delivery. She layed in the bed and the doctor told her she had to start pushing in 20 minutes. This was the longest 20 minutes of her life. Safaree was sweating a little because he was nervous now but he kept composure for Nicki.
"Ok Ms.Maraj we see you are 10 cm dialated so we are ready, how are you feeling?"
"Horrible.. I just want to get it over with. I am so glad I got the epidural because I dont think I could have taken it."
"Ok Sir, we are going to have you stand here and hold one of her legs ok."
"Ok."
By this point Safaree was freaking out. He wanted to hold Nicki's hand and reassure her but he was now holding her leg looking at where the baby would be coming out.
"Ok give us a big push mama."
"1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9,...10. Breathe."
"UGHHHHHHH" Nicki screamed.
"OMGGGGGG THIS IS SO HORRIBLE." She yelled.
"Another push, you can do it.
"AHHHHHHHHHH"
10 Minutes went by and it was almost over.
"NICKI OMG BABE I SEE HIS HEAD!!!! HE HAS A LOT OF HAIR OMG PUSH PUSH PUSH!"
Nicki gave another push and the head was out. The doctor grabbed the baby and pulled him out. He was so little. He was light and had a lot of hair. Nicki saw him when the doctor picked him up. She immediately started crying. He was so beautiful. Safaree cut the cord and they took the baby to the back.
They were suctioning the snot and blood out of his nose and throat when they noticed his heart rate dropped severely. They hooked him up to machines and gave him oxygen. They didnt know what had happened. Sometimes babies get excited or dont know how to react when they get to the real world. Thats what they thought. They wrapped him up and brought him to Nicki and Safaree.
"Omg Nicki he is so handsome. He looks just like you." Safaree said.
"Hi Nicholas, you are so beautiful...mamas baby." She said as she kissed him
"Umm Ms. Maraj, we have to take Nicholas back for some testing. There seems to be a problem with his heart."
"WHAT?" Nicki Screamed.
"Calm down ma'am. He is going to be fine we jus have to run some tests." With that they took Nicholas.
"Omg Safaree what could be wrong??" "Its my fault he is sick."
"No Nicki.. Stop. Just wait until they find out."
"Safaree go with them please."
"Ok baby I love you." He kissed her forehead and walked out.
Nicki was in a panic.. She was scared and crying.
IN THE BABIES WARD
Safaree ran to see where Nicholas was... He heard a baby cry and thought he recognized it. He stopped and opened the door.
"Sir you cant be in here"
"Thats my son. I want to know whats going on."
"We are running tests but it is steril in here you have to stand outside and wait."
"He went outside and looked in the window."
He heard a loud beep and saw that the doctors seemed stressed. He tried to open the door to see what was going on but the doctor had locked it. He looked and saw Nicki's son laying lifeless on the metal table. He started to panic and scream.
"LET ME IN THIS FUCKING ROOM. WHAT HAVE U DONE TO MY SON? LET ME IN RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" He screamed.
Nicki heard him and started to panic. She unhooked all her machines and got up. She was in soo much pain but had to find out where Safaree was. As soon as she stepped out, the nurse ran to her and took her back to her bed.
"Ma'am you cannot be up walking around. We will be in here shortly." She left the room.
"LET ME IN RIGHT NOW." He screamed
"PLEASE LET ME SEE MY SON!"
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Thursday, April 5, 2012
Time to man up.
NICKI POV
Nicki put her phone on the charger and sat down on the couch. She was so scared. She knew Safaree would be so mad. He would probably leave her. She would have to move in with Lauren or Candice. She started crying. She picked up the phone and called Lauren because she needed reassurance.
SAFAREE POV
She said she didnt cheat on me so I believe her. I love her so much and she loves me so why would she lie? I just gotta find out what happened because NO ONE will mess with my baby.....
Safaree pulled up to CVS. If she thought she was pregnant he sure would help her find out. If she wasnt pregnant he wanted to find out why she was sick.
"Um Sir, Excuse me?" Safaree asked.
"Yes sir, how may I help you?" The worker replied.
"Can you show me where you're pregnancy tests are, and show me the best one please?"
Most guys would be too prideful and too embarassed to go shopping for female products but Safaree wasnt. He didnt care. He loved Nicki so much and would buy anything for her. He would cross the ocean and come back for her. Thats how he felt.
The man picked up a pregnancy test in a pink box and it had 2 tests in it. It was 35.99$.
"I'll take it." Safaree said.
He handed the man $40 and said keep the change and left.
He got back in the car and sped home to his baby. When he got out he grabbed the tests and took a deep breath. He went inside.
"Nicki?" He said looking for her.
"In here Safaree." She yelled from the living room.
"Hey baby are you ok?" He said sitting on the couch next to her holding her.
"Safaree dont be all nice ok, I know you're mad. Let me just get this off my chest."
"Baby I am not mad. Just tell me what happened. I love you."
"Ok.. Well the night I had left to come here. Something had happened to me. I had just came in from work and went in my room. I was so tired..."
She stopped because she was crying. Safaree grabbed her and held her. Then he spoke.
"Tell me what happened. I'm here. No one is ever going to hurt you again."
"Well when I layed down to go to sleep... My dad came in.. He got into my bed.....Then he raped me."
"HE DID WHAT?!" SB jumped up off the couch.
"NICKI HE FUCKING RAPED YOU?! I AM GOING TO KILL THIS MOTHER FUCKER RIGHT NOW."
Nicki got up and grabbed him.
"No baby please calm down. Please. For me?"
When he heard her say that his anger went down a little. He grabbed her and pulled her into a hug and then he spoke calmly.
"Nicki, on the way home I got you some pregnancy tests. The best ones I could find. I want you to take them and I am going to take you to the doctor. What do you want to do?"
"SB I know I never believed in this and this will sound crazy coming from me, but.. I dont want anyone to find out. Only you, Lauren, and Candice know. If I am pregnant I dont want it.."
"Ok I understand.. If any thought in your mind ever comes up that you do want to keep it, just know I would never leave you and I would be here every step of the way for you and your baby. No one would ever have to know who's baby it is Nicki."
"Thank you Faree. I love you so much." She sobbed on his chest.
By the time she got all her crying out his shirt was soaked. She lifted her head up and told Safaree she was ready to take the tests. They went in the bathroom and opened them. Safaree stood outside the door to give her privacy. She just stared at the stick.
"Um Safaree?" She called.
"Yes baby?" He said through the door.
"Can you come in here please? I really dont want to do this alone." She said almost crying.
He opened the door and walked in.
"Dont ever think you are alone and dont ever be scared to ask me to do something for you. I will never tell you no and I will never make you feel dumb or feel like you shouldnt have asked me. Everything I do, I do for you. I love you." With that he kissed her forehead.
4 Minutes Later.
Nicki walked back into the bathroom and picked up both tests.. She screamed. They both said +.
She was so upset. Safaree walked in and grabbed her. She almost collapsed. He picked her up and took her to the bed. He sat her down and he got on his knees next to her.
"We can do this Nicki. You can get through this. You are strong and I am strong. Together we can do it."
"Safaree, I just want to say I love you. I appriciate you for everything. I know we've only known each other for 2 years but you have never left me. No matter what happened you always cared for me. You always loved me and stood by me. You were honest to me and always told me what you thought. I have never met any one as real as you. I will love you forever."
"I love you too Nicki."
Nicki leaned back in the bed because she was emotionally drained. Safaree took off his pants and shirt and got in the bed. He stayed on his side because he wanted to give her space.
"Safaree"
"Yes Nicki?"
"Hold me please."
He scooted over to her and wrapped his arms around her. He loved her so much. The way their bodies fit perfectly together. He put his hand under her shirt and rubbed her stomach. It wasnt flat anymore. It pudged out and was hard. He thought she was in pain from it so he continued to rub it.
"Safaree?"
"Yes?"
"Why are u rubbing my stomach?"
"Oh.. I'm sorry Nicki." He stopped.
"No I like it. I just want to know why."
"Because you have been throwing up and having stomach cramps. I thought maybe you could feel better if I rubbed it."
She turned to face him and their lips met. He never noticed before but her stomach actually stuck out enough to where he could fill it on his stomach while they were kissing. He broke the kiss.
"Nicki, how long ago was this.. Like how far along are you?"
"Probably 4 or 5 months."
"OMG Nicki..."
"What??"
"You know once you get 5 months you cant have an abortion."
"You cant?!"
"No!"
"Oh my.. What are we gonna do Safaree?"
"We'll figure it out baby. You have a doctors appointment tomorrow. Remember what I said Ok? No matter what happens I will still be here to support you. With or without your baby."
"Ok Safaree...Thank you. That means a lot." She said smiling.
They fell asleep.
NEXT DAY.
Nicki jumped up out of bed as soon as she woke up. She was soooo ready for her doctors appointment. The sooner she could get rid of this problem, the sooner she could go back to work, get money, and continue working on music. She was kind of excited in a way,
"Good morning baby." Safaree said
"Good Morning." She said frowning seeing that he was already dressed.
"Dont be mad but I wanted you to get your sleep because this is a pretty big appointment. I want you to just put your hair up and throw on some sweat pants. Our appointment is in 35 mins."
She ran to her room and saw that Safaree already layed her stuff out. She smiled because she loved him so much. She threw on her clothes and they were off to the doctor.
"Onika Maraj." The nurse called out.
"Thats me" Nicki said.
She grabbed her purse and grabbed Safarees hand and went to the back. The nurse took her height, weight, bloodpressure, temperature..ect. When she was done she left and Nicki waited for the doctor. Her and Safaree didnt really say anything cuz they were both really nervous. Just then the doctor walked in.
"How are you Ms.Maraj?" The doctor asked.
"I am good thank you."
"So I understand you are here for a ultrasound and possible abortion?" The doctor asked to make sure.
"Yes Ma'am that would be it."
"Ok lets get started"
The doctor pulled up Nicki's shirt and hoodie to see her baby bump. She poured the blue jelly on her stomach and started the ultrasound. Nicki looked up at the screen and saw a baby. She started to tear up.
"Ok. I have good news and I have bad news."
"Oh my god... Ok go ahead."
"The good news is your baby is happy and healthy inside of you.....The bad news is you are 5 and a half months pregnant and legally we can not give you an abortion."
Nicki's mouth fell open and she looked at Safaree. He stood up.
"Doc can we please have a moment alone?"
"Sure thing Sir. Actually when you are done you can go ahead and leave unless that will be all for you today."
"Wait..." Safaree said.
"There is something else I want to know." He continued speaking.
"Ok what can I do for you sir?"
Safaree knew doing this wouldnt be easy but he knew Nicki wasnt in her right mind and he wanted to be as prepared as possible. Nicki was his life. And now the baby inside of her was his life too. He already made up his mind.
"Um can we find out the sex of the baby and get a possible due date?"
"Of course."
She pulled out the ultrasound again.
"Ok.... hmmm... Looks like you are having a little boy. Congratulations. The due date is May 1st."
" Ok Ma'am thank you. I appriciate everything you did today."
The doctor left.
"Come on Nicki we have to go home. Get yourself together. We will talk in the car."
He helped her up and held her hand all the way to the car. They got in. The first 5 minutes of the car ride was silent.
"Safaree I dont think I can do this.'' ................................................
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Nicki put her phone on the charger and sat down on the couch. She was so scared. She knew Safaree would be so mad. He would probably leave her. She would have to move in with Lauren or Candice. She started crying. She picked up the phone and called Lauren because she needed reassurance.
SAFAREE POV
She said she didnt cheat on me so I believe her. I love her so much and she loves me so why would she lie? I just gotta find out what happened because NO ONE will mess with my baby.....
Safaree pulled up to CVS. If she thought she was pregnant he sure would help her find out. If she wasnt pregnant he wanted to find out why she was sick.
"Um Sir, Excuse me?" Safaree asked.
"Yes sir, how may I help you?" The worker replied.
"Can you show me where you're pregnancy tests are, and show me the best one please?"
Most guys would be too prideful and too embarassed to go shopping for female products but Safaree wasnt. He didnt care. He loved Nicki so much and would buy anything for her. He would cross the ocean and come back for her. Thats how he felt.
The man picked up a pregnancy test in a pink box and it had 2 tests in it. It was 35.99$.
"I'll take it." Safaree said.
He handed the man $40 and said keep the change and left.
He got back in the car and sped home to his baby. When he got out he grabbed the tests and took a deep breath. He went inside.
"Nicki?" He said looking for her.
"In here Safaree." She yelled from the living room.
"Hey baby are you ok?" He said sitting on the couch next to her holding her.
"Safaree dont be all nice ok, I know you're mad. Let me just get this off my chest."
"Baby I am not mad. Just tell me what happened. I love you."
"Ok.. Well the night I had left to come here. Something had happened to me. I had just came in from work and went in my room. I was so tired..."
She stopped because she was crying. Safaree grabbed her and held her. Then he spoke.
"Tell me what happened. I'm here. No one is ever going to hurt you again."
"Well when I layed down to go to sleep... My dad came in.. He got into my bed.....Then he raped me."
"HE DID WHAT?!" SB jumped up off the couch.
"NICKI HE FUCKING RAPED YOU?! I AM GOING TO KILL THIS MOTHER FUCKER RIGHT NOW."
Nicki got up and grabbed him.
"No baby please calm down. Please. For me?"
When he heard her say that his anger went down a little. He grabbed her and pulled her into a hug and then he spoke calmly.
"Nicki, on the way home I got you some pregnancy tests. The best ones I could find. I want you to take them and I am going to take you to the doctor. What do you want to do?"
"SB I know I never believed in this and this will sound crazy coming from me, but.. I dont want anyone to find out. Only you, Lauren, and Candice know. If I am pregnant I dont want it.."
"Ok I understand.. If any thought in your mind ever comes up that you do want to keep it, just know I would never leave you and I would be here every step of the way for you and your baby. No one would ever have to know who's baby it is Nicki."
"Thank you Faree. I love you so much." She sobbed on his chest.
By the time she got all her crying out his shirt was soaked. She lifted her head up and told Safaree she was ready to take the tests. They went in the bathroom and opened them. Safaree stood outside the door to give her privacy. She just stared at the stick.
"Um Safaree?" She called.
"Yes baby?" He said through the door.
"Can you come in here please? I really dont want to do this alone." She said almost crying.
He opened the door and walked in.
"Dont ever think you are alone and dont ever be scared to ask me to do something for you. I will never tell you no and I will never make you feel dumb or feel like you shouldnt have asked me. Everything I do, I do for you. I love you." With that he kissed her forehead.
4 Minutes Later.
Nicki walked back into the bathroom and picked up both tests.. She screamed. They both said +.
She was so upset. Safaree walked in and grabbed her. She almost collapsed. He picked her up and took her to the bed. He sat her down and he got on his knees next to her.
"We can do this Nicki. You can get through this. You are strong and I am strong. Together we can do it."
"Safaree, I just want to say I love you. I appriciate you for everything. I know we've only known each other for 2 years but you have never left me. No matter what happened you always cared for me. You always loved me and stood by me. You were honest to me and always told me what you thought. I have never met any one as real as you. I will love you forever."
"I love you too Nicki."
Nicki leaned back in the bed because she was emotionally drained. Safaree took off his pants and shirt and got in the bed. He stayed on his side because he wanted to give her space.
"Safaree"
"Yes Nicki?"
"Hold me please."
He scooted over to her and wrapped his arms around her. He loved her so much. The way their bodies fit perfectly together. He put his hand under her shirt and rubbed her stomach. It wasnt flat anymore. It pudged out and was hard. He thought she was in pain from it so he continued to rub it.
"Safaree?"
"Yes?"
"Why are u rubbing my stomach?"
"Oh.. I'm sorry Nicki." He stopped.
"No I like it. I just want to know why."
"Because you have been throwing up and having stomach cramps. I thought maybe you could feel better if I rubbed it."
She turned to face him and their lips met. He never noticed before but her stomach actually stuck out enough to where he could fill it on his stomach while they were kissing. He broke the kiss.
"Nicki, how long ago was this.. Like how far along are you?"
"Probably 4 or 5 months."
"OMG Nicki..."
"What??"
"You know once you get 5 months you cant have an abortion."
"You cant?!"
"No!"
"Oh my.. What are we gonna do Safaree?"
"We'll figure it out baby. You have a doctors appointment tomorrow. Remember what I said Ok? No matter what happens I will still be here to support you. With or without your baby."
"Ok Safaree...Thank you. That means a lot." She said smiling.
They fell asleep.
NEXT DAY.
Nicki jumped up out of bed as soon as she woke up. She was soooo ready for her doctors appointment. The sooner she could get rid of this problem, the sooner she could go back to work, get money, and continue working on music. She was kind of excited in a way,
"Good morning baby." Safaree said
"Good Morning." She said frowning seeing that he was already dressed.
"Dont be mad but I wanted you to get your sleep because this is a pretty big appointment. I want you to just put your hair up and throw on some sweat pants. Our appointment is in 35 mins."
She ran to her room and saw that Safaree already layed her stuff out. She smiled because she loved him so much. She threw on her clothes and they were off to the doctor.
"Onika Maraj." The nurse called out.
"Thats me" Nicki said.
She grabbed her purse and grabbed Safarees hand and went to the back. The nurse took her height, weight, bloodpressure, temperature..ect. When she was done she left and Nicki waited for the doctor. Her and Safaree didnt really say anything cuz they were both really nervous. Just then the doctor walked in.
"How are you Ms.Maraj?" The doctor asked.
"I am good thank you."
"So I understand you are here for a ultrasound and possible abortion?" The doctor asked to make sure.
"Yes Ma'am that would be it."
"Ok lets get started"
The doctor pulled up Nicki's shirt and hoodie to see her baby bump. She poured the blue jelly on her stomach and started the ultrasound. Nicki looked up at the screen and saw a baby. She started to tear up.
"Ok. I have good news and I have bad news."
"Oh my god... Ok go ahead."
"The good news is your baby is happy and healthy inside of you.....The bad news is you are 5 and a half months pregnant and legally we can not give you an abortion."
Nicki's mouth fell open and she looked at Safaree. He stood up.
"Doc can we please have a moment alone?"
"Sure thing Sir. Actually when you are done you can go ahead and leave unless that will be all for you today."
"Wait..." Safaree said.
"There is something else I want to know." He continued speaking.
"Ok what can I do for you sir?"
Safaree knew doing this wouldnt be easy but he knew Nicki wasnt in her right mind and he wanted to be as prepared as possible. Nicki was his life. And now the baby inside of her was his life too. He already made up his mind.
"Um can we find out the sex of the baby and get a possible due date?"
"Of course."
She pulled out the ultrasound again.
"Ok.... hmmm... Looks like you are having a little boy. Congratulations. The due date is May 1st."
" Ok Ma'am thank you. I appriciate everything you did today."
The doctor left.
"Come on Nicki we have to go home. Get yourself together. We will talk in the car."
He helped her up and held her hand all the way to the car. They got in. The first 5 minutes of the car ride was silent.
"Safaree I dont think I can do this.'' ................................................
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She got scared and stopped talking.
"What? What is it Nicki? Tell me baby." SB pleaded.
"*Sigh* Because I only feel safe with you... I know that's dumb but I been wanting to tell you that" She lied.
"Aww baby I love you so much. I thought u were gonna give me bad news. I was nervous." He replied,
"Nooo of course not, I never want to disappoint you."
"Haha OK, You know tomorrow I am taking you to get you're phone put in my name and we can change all your school info to my mom if you want."
"OK sounds good cuz my parents are gonna flip!! My dad will come here looking for me." She said sounding nervous.
"Well everyday when we get outta school I am gonna take you to my sisters house and I wont come get you until late. That way if he comes to my house I can act like I haven't seen you."
"OK. As long as you're confident I am too!" She smiled.
With that they got out of the car and went inside.. Nicki was already in her pajamas so she kissed SB and went to her room and laid down. She turned on the TV but she kept having flash backs. The whole thing kept replaying in her head, She didn't want to do this but she did... She got up and walked down the hall to SB's room. She knocked on the door because she didn't know if he was naked or not.. He didn't answer. She peeped in the door and he was already asleep. She went in the room and creeped up to the bed. SB felt movement and opened his eyes.
"Nicki whats wrong?!?" He jumped up.
"No No Nothing is wrong! Don't panic..." She said.
He went over to her and grabbed her hands.
"Well whats wrong then?" He asked.
"Its just that, I ran away and now I am in a new place, in a room by myself... I cant sleep."
"Oh, you want me to stay up with you? I will. What you want to do? Watch TV?" He asked.
"Actually no its something else..." She said nervously.
"Oh, u want to go home?" He sounded hurt and sad.
"NO! I just.... I want to sleep in your bed with you." She blurted.
"Oh." was all he could manage to say. He was so shocked.
"Sure baby of course, come on." He said.
She got into the bed and pulled the covers up. She had to get sleep because she had to go to school tomorrow. She closed her eyes and shivered.
"Um Safaree..." She said
"Yes baby?"
"Can you hold me? I want to feel that you are there. Protect me Safaree."
He moved her closer to him and wrapped his arm around her. They were facing each other. She put her head in his neck. She had never felt like this before. She felt safe. Like no one could take her or hurt her.. She loved him so much and hoped nothing ever broke them apart.
Safaree POV
He loved her so much and this moment was so surreal. He loved it. He had always wanted to protect her but since she was so independent she never let him. But today she ASKED him to protect her. He was in shock. He was thinking how he would never ever let anyone hurt her even if he had to kill someone.
NEXT DAY.
Nicki rolled over and looked at the clock 6:08am. She looked over and Safaree was still holding her and sleeping. She smiled at him. She slid from under his arm to get out of bed. He felt her get up but he didn't move. He didn't want to wake up and make her feel bad. She went into her room and looked in her closet for an outfit... Damn.. She thought. He really knew how to shop for her.. She went into the bathroom to take a shower. She dropped all her clothes on the floor and hopped in. When she got out, the mirror was all fogged up and it was hot. So she grabbed her dirty clothes and ran out. She went in her room and lotioned up and got dressed. It was now 7:30 so she was ready to go. Safaree was a senior so he didn't go to school until 10. She went in the room to kiss him goodbye but he spoke when she came in.
"Good morning baby, you look good. I'm gonna take you to school so no one sees you."
"OK. I am ready now if that OK with you." She said.
"Of course!! Lets go."
Safaree was driving home. He planned on not going to school because he wanted to be able to get to Nicki if something happened. He also was gonna get her phone switched over and fix her room up some more. Right now tho he wanted to go back to sleep. He walked in the house and pulled the covers back to get in..
"What the fuck..." He said out loud.
There was a big spot of blood on the bed. He didn't know what to think...
"Probably her period" He mumbled..
He changed the sheets and went back to sleep.
3 MONTHS LATER
It was now Christmas break at school and she was headed back to Safaree's. Things with her had calmed down. Her mom knew where she was living and accepted the fact that her daughter was "rebelling" and wasn't coming home. She never visited her mother or father. She told her mother she was sick of her fathers drinking and sick of him beating on the both of them so until she left him she would continue to live with Safaree. Nicki was now 18 and she loved it! She went out to clubs and could do what she wanted. Her and Safaree had done about 6 shows at some New York clubs since she moved out. She had some fans but she felt like she wasn't going to make it. Her and Safaree were getting along so good and they loved each other so much. Lauren, Candi, and Safaree's friends the Vakies always came over to kick it. Nicki was loving life!
Nicki used her key and walked in. She mostly always got home before Safaree and as soon as he was on his way home she would be leaving to work. She worked at Red Lobster and he worked at Lady Footlocker. She would leave him little notes because she knew he missed her while she was gone and wouldn't see her until like 11 at night. She worked 4-10 on the weekdays. He worked 9-3.
She went into her room and got her uniform ready. She wasn't really feeling well. She had a headache all day and felt sick to her stomach. She went to the kitchen and got a water out of the fridge. She went and put on her uniform and touched up her makeup. She had like 10 mins before she had to leave. Her stomach started feeling really bad and she got up and went to the bathroom. When she got in there she threw up everything. She felt terrible. "Ughhhhh" She thought. "I hate stomach flu's!" She picked up her phone and dialed...
"Red Lobster TT speaking, how may I help you today."
"Hey TT, its Nicki. I am really not feeling well. I am sorry I'm just now calling but I was in school and I didn't know I was this sick."
"You're good Nic. U never call in and you always work hard. Don't worry about it."
"Thanks TT."
"Alright Nic see u tomorrow."
"Bye."
"Bye."
She laid her phone down and got in the bed. She had the trash can right by her just in case. She quickly fell asleep.
Safaree walked in wondering why her car was still in the driveway. He ran up to her room and didn't see her. He walked in his room and saw her in his bed. He saw the trash can and thought Oh no she must be sick. I'll let her rest. He kissed her forehead and went downstairs.
3 DAYS LATER
Nicki: No Lauren, I'm serious... I think I am pregnant.
Lauren: I cant believe this... AND I cant believe you didn't tell me all this shit that happened. You need to tell Safaree.
Nicki: No omg he will be so pissed that I didn't tell him sooner.
Lauren: He needs to know Nicki... What are you going to do?
Nicki: I don't know but I am getting in the shower. BBL
Nicki put her phone on the bed and got in the shower. Safaree was still in bed watching TV. Nicki's phone went off and he looked to see what it said.
Lauren: Ok talk to you later. But you really need to tell Safaree. Love you.
Safaree scrolled up and saw the rest of the messages.
"Is she cheating on me and pregnant with another persons baby? omg."
He got up, got dressed and left to go on a drive.
Nicki got out the shower looking for him. She called him several times with no answer.. She started to get worried until she heard his ringtone.
Baby: Our you cheating on me Nicki?
My Love: WHAT?!?! HELL NO. Why would you say that?
Baby: I saw ur text messages to Lauren. Please tell me whats going on Nicki. I am so hurt.
My Love: Come home... Its a long story and this is going to take a lot out of me. I am not cheating baby. I love you.
Baby: I love you too. See you in 10.......
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"What? What is it Nicki? Tell me baby." SB pleaded.
"*Sigh* Because I only feel safe with you... I know that's dumb but I been wanting to tell you that" She lied.
"Aww baby I love you so much. I thought u were gonna give me bad news. I was nervous." He replied,
"Nooo of course not, I never want to disappoint you."
"Haha OK, You know tomorrow I am taking you to get you're phone put in my name and we can change all your school info to my mom if you want."
"OK sounds good cuz my parents are gonna flip!! My dad will come here looking for me." She said sounding nervous.
"Well everyday when we get outta school I am gonna take you to my sisters house and I wont come get you until late. That way if he comes to my house I can act like I haven't seen you."
"OK. As long as you're confident I am too!" She smiled.
With that they got out of the car and went inside.. Nicki was already in her pajamas so she kissed SB and went to her room and laid down. She turned on the TV but she kept having flash backs. The whole thing kept replaying in her head, She didn't want to do this but she did... She got up and walked down the hall to SB's room. She knocked on the door because she didn't know if he was naked or not.. He didn't answer. She peeped in the door and he was already asleep. She went in the room and creeped up to the bed. SB felt movement and opened his eyes.
"Nicki whats wrong?!?" He jumped up.
"No No Nothing is wrong! Don't panic..." She said.
He went over to her and grabbed her hands.
"Well whats wrong then?" He asked.
"Its just that, I ran away and now I am in a new place, in a room by myself... I cant sleep."
"Oh, you want me to stay up with you? I will. What you want to do? Watch TV?" He asked.
"Actually no its something else..." She said nervously.
"Oh, u want to go home?" He sounded hurt and sad.
"NO! I just.... I want to sleep in your bed with you." She blurted.
"Oh." was all he could manage to say. He was so shocked.
"Sure baby of course, come on." He said.
She got into the bed and pulled the covers up. She had to get sleep because she had to go to school tomorrow. She closed her eyes and shivered.
"Um Safaree..." She said
"Yes baby?"
"Can you hold me? I want to feel that you are there. Protect me Safaree."
He moved her closer to him and wrapped his arm around her. They were facing each other. She put her head in his neck. She had never felt like this before. She felt safe. Like no one could take her or hurt her.. She loved him so much and hoped nothing ever broke them apart.
Safaree POV
He loved her so much and this moment was so surreal. He loved it. He had always wanted to protect her but since she was so independent she never let him. But today she ASKED him to protect her. He was in shock. He was thinking how he would never ever let anyone hurt her even if he had to kill someone.
NEXT DAY.
Nicki rolled over and looked at the clock 6:08am. She looked over and Safaree was still holding her and sleeping. She smiled at him. She slid from under his arm to get out of bed. He felt her get up but he didn't move. He didn't want to wake up and make her feel bad. She went into her room and looked in her closet for an outfit... Damn.. She thought. He really knew how to shop for her.. She went into the bathroom to take a shower. She dropped all her clothes on the floor and hopped in. When she got out, the mirror was all fogged up and it was hot. So she grabbed her dirty clothes and ran out. She went in her room and lotioned up and got dressed. It was now 7:30 so she was ready to go. Safaree was a senior so he didn't go to school until 10. She went in the room to kiss him goodbye but he spoke when she came in.
"Good morning baby, you look good. I'm gonna take you to school so no one sees you."
"OK. I am ready now if that OK with you." She said.
"Of course!! Lets go."
Safaree was driving home. He planned on not going to school because he wanted to be able to get to Nicki if something happened. He also was gonna get her phone switched over and fix her room up some more. Right now tho he wanted to go back to sleep. He walked in the house and pulled the covers back to get in..
"What the fuck..." He said out loud.
There was a big spot of blood on the bed. He didn't know what to think...
"Probably her period" He mumbled..
He changed the sheets and went back to sleep.
3 MONTHS LATER
It was now Christmas break at school and she was headed back to Safaree's. Things with her had calmed down. Her mom knew where she was living and accepted the fact that her daughter was "rebelling" and wasn't coming home. She never visited her mother or father. She told her mother she was sick of her fathers drinking and sick of him beating on the both of them so until she left him she would continue to live with Safaree. Nicki was now 18 and she loved it! She went out to clubs and could do what she wanted. Her and Safaree had done about 6 shows at some New York clubs since she moved out. She had some fans but she felt like she wasn't going to make it. Her and Safaree were getting along so good and they loved each other so much. Lauren, Candi, and Safaree's friends the Vakies always came over to kick it. Nicki was loving life!
Nicki used her key and walked in. She mostly always got home before Safaree and as soon as he was on his way home she would be leaving to work. She worked at Red Lobster and he worked at Lady Footlocker. She would leave him little notes because she knew he missed her while she was gone and wouldn't see her until like 11 at night. She worked 4-10 on the weekdays. He worked 9-3.
She went into her room and got her uniform ready. She wasn't really feeling well. She had a headache all day and felt sick to her stomach. She went to the kitchen and got a water out of the fridge. She went and put on her uniform and touched up her makeup. She had like 10 mins before she had to leave. Her stomach started feeling really bad and she got up and went to the bathroom. When she got in there she threw up everything. She felt terrible. "Ughhhhh" She thought. "I hate stomach flu's!" She picked up her phone and dialed...
"Red Lobster TT speaking, how may I help you today."
"Hey TT, its Nicki. I am really not feeling well. I am sorry I'm just now calling but I was in school and I didn't know I was this sick."
"You're good Nic. U never call in and you always work hard. Don't worry about it."
"Thanks TT."
"Alright Nic see u tomorrow."
"Bye."
"Bye."
She laid her phone down and got in the bed. She had the trash can right by her just in case. She quickly fell asleep.
Safaree walked in wondering why her car was still in the driveway. He ran up to her room and didn't see her. He walked in his room and saw her in his bed. He saw the trash can and thought Oh no she must be sick. I'll let her rest. He kissed her forehead and went downstairs.
3 DAYS LATER
Nicki: No Lauren, I'm serious... I think I am pregnant.
Lauren: I cant believe this... AND I cant believe you didn't tell me all this shit that happened. You need to tell Safaree.
Nicki: No omg he will be so pissed that I didn't tell him sooner.
Lauren: He needs to know Nicki... What are you going to do?
Nicki: I don't know but I am getting in the shower. BBL
Nicki put her phone on the bed and got in the shower. Safaree was still in bed watching TV. Nicki's phone went off and he looked to see what it said.
Lauren: Ok talk to you later. But you really need to tell Safaree. Love you.
Safaree scrolled up and saw the rest of the messages.
"Is she cheating on me and pregnant with another persons baby? omg."
He got up, got dressed and left to go on a drive.
Nicki got out the shower looking for him. She called him several times with no answer.. She started to get worried until she heard his ringtone.
Baby: Our you cheating on me Nicki?
My Love: WHAT?!?! HELL NO. Why would you say that?
Baby: I saw ur text messages to Lauren. Please tell me whats going on Nicki. I am so hurt.
My Love: Come home... Its a long story and this is going to take a lot out of me. I am not cheating baby. I love you.
Baby: I love you too. See you in 10.......
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Wednesday, April 4, 2012
It cant be happening...
She looked over and saw her dad walk in. She shut her eyes closed tightly and pretended to be sleep. She was so scared she tried to control her shakes but she couldnt.. She thought if she just pretended to stay asleep he would leave..
"Onika" He whispered...
"Onika, wake up for your daddy, I need to talk to you" He begged.
She didnt budge. She couldnt see him so she didnt know she needed to shield her face. He took his beer bottle and hit her in the face with it. Before she could scream he covered her face with his big hands.
She screamed and cried but they were muffled.
"Shut the fuck up, you werent even sleeping. When I call your name I told you, you will answer me."
He scowled at her.
His mood lightened slightly and he took his hand off her mouth.. He started playing in her hair and pulling the covers down.
"Daddy please no." She begged.
"I'll do anything but this.. Please please Dad I dont want to." She was now crying.
She had never felt like this before. She thought at any minute she would pass out from being so scared. She wasnt even shaking anymore. She was frozen. She felt paralized.
"Please Onika.. Dont feel bad and dont be scared. I am just doing this to show you that I am sorry. This will be good you just have to relax." He tried.
He started to lift up her shirt and saw that she only had on a thong.
"Oh so you were ready for me?" He laughed..
Nicki didnt think this was funny AT ALL. Her sobs were almost uncontrolable. When he lifted her shirt he unsnapped the front of her bra.
"Damn Onika you are only 17.. When did you grow up?"
He started feeling on her breasts. She couldnt really see his hands because her shirt was pulled up to her neck. He got on top of her and was straddling her. He pulled out his manhood and stroked it. He put it on her stomach. When she felt this she swallowed hard. She almost threw up.
"Daddy please no please." She begged thru her sobs.
He looked down and pulled off her thong. He stuck his finger inside of her and she jumped.
"DAD omg NO I sm a virgin." "Please dont do this. Please daddy.." She grabbed his hand.
He slapped her in her face and told her to shut up. She got quiet. She thought to herself the quicker I can get this over with the quicker I can get out of this house. He was still slipping his finger in and out of her while she jumped and fidgited. He took his finger out and rubbed his manhood.
"You ready baby? I'll be gentle." He spoke.
He tried to slide it in but it wouldnt go. In her mind she wanted to scream. She didnt know how much more she could take. He tried again to go in but it wasnt happening. She could see him starting to get angry so she closed her eyes tight and put her hands over her mouth. She was still crying but silently. She knew what was about to happen so she mentally prepared herself.
He got on his knees and moved up higher on her and got closer to her. He grabbed his manhood and forced it into her so hard and fast. Nicki could literally feel her skin tearing. She screamed but her dad slammed the pillow on her face.
"You WILL be quiet or I will keep this pillow over yout face until u stop breathing, do you understand me?" He said in a loud voice.
She shook her head yes.
He removed the pillow but put a hand over her mouth. He started sliding in and out of her slowly.
She was so ready for this to be over with so she tightened her self as much as she could. She blocked out everything and felt numb until eventually she felt something happen. She didnt know what it was but a second after that her dad got up and pulled up his pants and left without saying a word..
She got up out of her bed in super speed and ran to the bathroom. She flicked on the light and saw her face. Her face was all red and swollen, her lip was bleeding. Her private hurt so bad and blood was dripping down her leg. She ran some warm bathwater and waited for it to fill to the top. She put some epsome salt in there and grabbed her phone.. She texted Safaree to see if he was up.
*BUZZ BUZZ*
Safaree rolled over and grabbed his phone.
My Love: Hey baby are you up?
Baby: Yes baby I am always up for you.. *Pauz* lol
She wanted to laugh because it was SB but she didnt. She was too in shock.
My Love: Oh.. I think I want to leave tonight...
Baby: WHY what the fuck did he do? I will come over there and beat his fucking ass right now.
Safaree felt like because she was his girl now he had to protect her. He had never loved anyone before except his mom and sisters.
My Love: Nothing baby dont worry. I just want to come. I made up my mind.
Baby: Of course Nicki. I am on my way.
My Love: No give me about 30 mins, I am in the bath and I have to pack up my stuff.
Baby: I'll wait till you get out of the tub.. This might be weird but umm I already bought you a whole closet full of new outfits already and I got u 10 pairs of heels and 10 pair of sneakers.
My Love: Omg... I love you so much baby. Come get me.
Baby: On my way. Love you and dont get caught.
Nicki got out of the tub and when she stood up she noticed blood dripping down her leg again. She grabbed a panty liner out of the drawer and put it on. She put on her pajama pants and shirt and packed all her underwear and bra's cuz she knew SB was a boy and would probably forget.
She went out the back door quietly and hopped the side gate. She stood in the front yard and Safaree pulled up. She ran to the car. When she got in she grabbed his face and kissed him so hard.
"Oh my god Safaree I missed you so much!" She said.
"Me too. Whats in the bag? Safaree asked
"Oh just my bra's and panties." She chuckled
"Why'd you bring them? I told you I bought everything new?" Safaree said confused.
"So you got me panties and bra's too?!" She was surprised.
"Yep and all the personally stuff that girls use. Tampons. toothbrush, deoderant, perfume, bubblebath... I couldnt have you moving in with me and have it not feel like your own home." He said being caring.
"I love you so much cuz you really undertstand me Safaree." She smiled.
They pulled up to the house and Nicki swallowed hard..
"Um Safaree I want to tell you something..." She said nervously.
Safaree looked over because he heard the fear in her voice. He grabbed her hand as he saw tears rolling down her face.
"What is it baby, tell me. You can tell me anything,"
"You have to promise not to get mad.. Please. Put it on your life."
"Nicki I promise. I just want to know what happened. I could never be mad at you. I love you too much and I finally have you."
"Well the reason I wanted to come here and be with you is because........"
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"Onika" He whispered...
"Onika, wake up for your daddy, I need to talk to you" He begged.
She didnt budge. She couldnt see him so she didnt know she needed to shield her face. He took his beer bottle and hit her in the face with it. Before she could scream he covered her face with his big hands.
She screamed and cried but they were muffled.
"Shut the fuck up, you werent even sleeping. When I call your name I told you, you will answer me."
He scowled at her.
His mood lightened slightly and he took his hand off her mouth.. He started playing in her hair and pulling the covers down.
"Daddy please no." She begged.
"I'll do anything but this.. Please please Dad I dont want to." She was now crying.
She had never felt like this before. She thought at any minute she would pass out from being so scared. She wasnt even shaking anymore. She was frozen. She felt paralized.
"Please Onika.. Dont feel bad and dont be scared. I am just doing this to show you that I am sorry. This will be good you just have to relax." He tried.
He started to lift up her shirt and saw that she only had on a thong.
"Oh so you were ready for me?" He laughed..
Nicki didnt think this was funny AT ALL. Her sobs were almost uncontrolable. When he lifted her shirt he unsnapped the front of her bra.
"Damn Onika you are only 17.. When did you grow up?"
He started feeling on her breasts. She couldnt really see his hands because her shirt was pulled up to her neck. He got on top of her and was straddling her. He pulled out his manhood and stroked it. He put it on her stomach. When she felt this she swallowed hard. She almost threw up.
"Daddy please no please." She begged thru her sobs.
He looked down and pulled off her thong. He stuck his finger inside of her and she jumped.
"DAD omg NO I sm a virgin." "Please dont do this. Please daddy.." She grabbed his hand.
He slapped her in her face and told her to shut up. She got quiet. She thought to herself the quicker I can get this over with the quicker I can get out of this house. He was still slipping his finger in and out of her while she jumped and fidgited. He took his finger out and rubbed his manhood.
"You ready baby? I'll be gentle." He spoke.
He tried to slide it in but it wouldnt go. In her mind she wanted to scream. She didnt know how much more she could take. He tried again to go in but it wasnt happening. She could see him starting to get angry so she closed her eyes tight and put her hands over her mouth. She was still crying but silently. She knew what was about to happen so she mentally prepared herself.
He got on his knees and moved up higher on her and got closer to her. He grabbed his manhood and forced it into her so hard and fast. Nicki could literally feel her skin tearing. She screamed but her dad slammed the pillow on her face.
"You WILL be quiet or I will keep this pillow over yout face until u stop breathing, do you understand me?" He said in a loud voice.
She shook her head yes.
He removed the pillow but put a hand over her mouth. He started sliding in and out of her slowly.
She was so ready for this to be over with so she tightened her self as much as she could. She blocked out everything and felt numb until eventually she felt something happen. She didnt know what it was but a second after that her dad got up and pulled up his pants and left without saying a word..
She got up out of her bed in super speed and ran to the bathroom. She flicked on the light and saw her face. Her face was all red and swollen, her lip was bleeding. Her private hurt so bad and blood was dripping down her leg. She ran some warm bathwater and waited for it to fill to the top. She put some epsome salt in there and grabbed her phone.. She texted Safaree to see if he was up.
*BUZZ BUZZ*
Safaree rolled over and grabbed his phone.
My Love: Hey baby are you up?
Baby: Yes baby I am always up for you.. *Pauz* lol
She wanted to laugh because it was SB but she didnt. She was too in shock.
My Love: Oh.. I think I want to leave tonight...
Baby: WHY what the fuck did he do? I will come over there and beat his fucking ass right now.
Safaree felt like because she was his girl now he had to protect her. He had never loved anyone before except his mom and sisters.
My Love: Nothing baby dont worry. I just want to come. I made up my mind.
Baby: Of course Nicki. I am on my way.
My Love: No give me about 30 mins, I am in the bath and I have to pack up my stuff.
Baby: I'll wait till you get out of the tub.. This might be weird but umm I already bought you a whole closet full of new outfits already and I got u 10 pairs of heels and 10 pair of sneakers.
My Love: Omg... I love you so much baby. Come get me.
Baby: On my way. Love you and dont get caught.
Nicki got out of the tub and when she stood up she noticed blood dripping down her leg again. She grabbed a panty liner out of the drawer and put it on. She put on her pajama pants and shirt and packed all her underwear and bra's cuz she knew SB was a boy and would probably forget.
She went out the back door quietly and hopped the side gate. She stood in the front yard and Safaree pulled up. She ran to the car. When she got in she grabbed his face and kissed him so hard.
"Oh my god Safaree I missed you so much!" She said.
"Me too. Whats in the bag? Safaree asked
"Oh just my bra's and panties." She chuckled
"Why'd you bring them? I told you I bought everything new?" Safaree said confused.
"So you got me panties and bra's too?!" She was surprised.
"Yep and all the personally stuff that girls use. Tampons. toothbrush, deoderant, perfume, bubblebath... I couldnt have you moving in with me and have it not feel like your own home." He said being caring.
"I love you so much cuz you really undertstand me Safaree." She smiled.
They pulled up to the house and Nicki swallowed hard..
"Um Safaree I want to tell you something..." She said nervously.
Safaree looked over because he heard the fear in her voice. He grabbed her hand as he saw tears rolling down her face.
"What is it baby, tell me. You can tell me anything,"
"You have to promise not to get mad.. Please. Put it on your life."
"Nicki I promise. I just want to know what happened. I could never be mad at you. I love you too much and I finally have you."
"Well the reason I wanted to come here and be with you is because........"
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I love him.
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"Well what is it Nicki, I'm listening" Lauren spoke softly.
"Well when I came home early from Safaree's...."
*beep*
"I'll call you back, someone's on the other line, love you"
"Hello"
"Hey Nic it's SB!" he said excitedly.
"Boy what you doing awake?"
"What you mean? It's Friday night"
"Oh yeah!!! I forgot"
Nicki was going to tell him about what just happened. But she didn't know when.
"Oh but I called cuz Nike emailed me back! I got the deal!"
"OMG safaree that's great!!!"
"Yeah I am sooooo excited, this is a dream come true!"
*Beep*
"Ugh let me call you back someone's calling"
"Hello"
"Hi this is an automated message from LaGuardia Highschool. This message is for the parent or guardian of Onika Maraj"
Nicki started to sweat.. She was nervous.
"We are calling on behalf of onika's grades. She has a failing grade in Math and English. She has missed 14 days of school. Please call us back at 212 568 6745. Thank you."
Nicki fell to her knees. She knew if she didn't fix this she would be kicked out of the art school. Why was everything happening to her? She knew she had to call Lauren and SB back but she was too drained. She was very happy for SB so she didn't want to tell him anything that could take away from his time to shine. She loved Lauren like a sister but the more she thought about the situation the more she wanted to hide it. She gave up for the night and fell asleep.
NEXT DAY.
Nicki woke up to the sound of her phone vibrating and then falling right off the nightstand. She leaned over n picked it up. It was a text from SB.
ScaffBaby: Hey I have a surprise for you! I'm coming to get u at 1pm be ready ok? :)
NickiBaby: ok but don't be trying no crazy shit lol what should I wear?
ScaffBaby: jeans and a tshirt.. You know, the norm. Go get ready! See u soon. :p
NickiBaby: Can't wait ;)
Nicki got out of bed and looked at the clock. 11:57 already. She knew no one would be home all day so she could just leave. She looked in her dresser drawers to find something cute. She pulled out a white v neck t shirt, some regular snug fitting jeans, and a pink and white belt. She put everything on and grabbed accessories, she grabbed pink earrings and her pink and white plastic bracelets. With that, she went to the bathroom and curled her hair and did her make up. She kept looking at the bruise on her neck. She had covered it with make up but in her mind she could still see it. She finally gave up and left. She stood outside waiting for SB because he was gonna be there any minute. When he arrived, she felt an excited feeling in her stomach. She got up and ran to his car. He got out and opened the door for her.
"Thank you SB"
"You're welcome Nicki"
"Nicki..."
"yes?"
"I have a surprise for you. We are going to see it."
They drove for about 10 minutes when Nicki looked up and saw them sitting outside of SB's apartment.
"Umm why are we here? If the surprise is in your house why didn't you just bring it to me?"
"Haha it's not that simple. Let's go"
SB hopped out of the car and opened Nickis door. He took her up the stairs and before he opened the door he put a blindfold on her.
"You can't see until I get you in front of it."
"ok"
He led her into a room into the house and sat her down. She felt that it was a bed but it was not Safaree's bed. He pulled the blindfold off of her and she screamed.
"SAFAREE OMG ARE YOU SERIOUS?!?"
"Yes Nicki. Only for you."
Nicki looked around. The walls were a pale pink and had big letters over her white wooden bed that said "Nicki's Room". She couldn't believe it. He had turned his guest room into a room for her and he nailed it. She loved it with every fiber of her being. He knew her so well.
"Nicki" "Nicki" "NICKI"
"Oh, sorry. What?"
"Do you like it?"
"SB.... I love it. It's beautiful. How did you know what to do?"
"Nicki.. I know you. I know everything about you. Nicki I want to tell you something."
"Ok and then I have something to tell you too"
He scooted closer to Nicki on the bed and then he grabbed her hand and held it. She was a little confused at this point because she didn't know what to think but she went with it because they were best friends and she trusted him.
"Ok Nicki.. Umm. I was kinda trying to plan my speech but whatever.. Here it goes... I just wanted to tell you that.. When you are away from me, I can't focus. When you are mad at me I can't eat or sleep. When you are at home and I think you are being hurt it takes everything in me not to come over there and get you. What I am trying to say is I love you Nicki.. Not just as a friend. MORE than that. I want to be with you. Hold you when you are in need and give you a kiss goodbye. I hope you understand."
They sat in silence while she took it all in.. *pauz* She was thinking how could she might ruin the moment if she told SB what was happening at home.
"So what did you have to tell me Nicki?" he asked sounding discouraged.
"I'm shocked because that's EXACTLY what I wanted too. I was gonna tell you the same thing."
Just then SB kissed her lips for the first time. It was great. Passionate. He loved every second. He pushed her back on the bed and started sucking her neck.
"No.. No Safaree that hurts.. I mean I don't want to do this right now."
"What? I hurt u Nicki? I'm sorry what did I do?"
"No you didn't hurt me, I didn't mean to say that. I'm sorry."
Nicki felt bad and didn't feel like explaining anything to Safaree so she grabbed his head and kissed him more. She got up and got on his lap.
"I love you Safaree. I love you so much."
She said in between kisses. He loved her back and these kisses were only out of pure love but he was starting to get really aroused. He wanted to stop because he didn't want to have sex with her. He loved her and she was still a virgin.
"ooooh Safaree this is soo good. "
"I know Nicki I love it too but look what time it is.."
It was 10pm. Nicki almost had a heart attack. Her mom gets home at 10 and her dad gets home at 10:30. She was never supposed to even leave the house.
"Come on, I gotta take you home."
SB pulled in the driveway and kissed Nicki goodbye. He waited until she got inside and then he pulled off.
AT NICKI'S HOUSE.
"Onika where have you been?" Nicki's mother asked.
"Oh I had a job interview at 7 and then I missed the bus so I had to wait on Safaree to come get me. I'm sorry mom."
"It's fine but next time please let me know. I don't want you in the streets at night." she said concerned.
"Yes ma'am."
With that Nicki went in her room. When she walked down the hall she saw her dad in his room drinking beer. This was no surprise because this is what he always did but today she felt worried. She was scared. Her heart beated fast as she kept walking to her room. She felt like something would happen tonight... She hurriedly hopped in the shower, washed up and got out. She put on her pink thing and safaree's shirt that said "wanna Minaj". They had gotten their shirts at her first club appearance when she was 16. She was now 17 and didn't do clubs anymore because her mom didn't want her to do them until she was 18 so she had to wait. She was really tired so she slid in her bed and pulled out her phone. She changed Safaree's name to baby because she loved him. He had already changed hers. My Love: Goodnight Safaree. I love you. Baby: Goodnight Nicki. I love you too. :) She layed her phone down and was flipping thru the tv channels. Just then, her door creeped open.....
So I hope you guys enjoyed this! Let me know what your predictions are!!! :)
"Well what is it Nicki, I'm listening" Lauren spoke softly.
"Well when I came home early from Safaree's...."
*beep*
"I'll call you back, someone's on the other line, love you"
"Hello"
"Hey Nic it's SB!" he said excitedly.
"Boy what you doing awake?"
"What you mean? It's Friday night"
"Oh yeah!!! I forgot"
Nicki was going to tell him about what just happened. But she didn't know when.
"Oh but I called cuz Nike emailed me back! I got the deal!"
"OMG safaree that's great!!!"
"Yeah I am sooooo excited, this is a dream come true!"
*Beep*
"Ugh let me call you back someone's calling"
"Hello"
"Hi this is an automated message from LaGuardia Highschool. This message is for the parent or guardian of Onika Maraj"
Nicki started to sweat.. She was nervous.
"We are calling on behalf of onika's grades. She has a failing grade in Math and English. She has missed 14 days of school. Please call us back at 212 568 6745. Thank you."
Nicki fell to her knees. She knew if she didn't fix this she would be kicked out of the art school. Why was everything happening to her? She knew she had to call Lauren and SB back but she was too drained. She was very happy for SB so she didn't want to tell him anything that could take away from his time to shine. She loved Lauren like a sister but the more she thought about the situation the more she wanted to hide it. She gave up for the night and fell asleep.
NEXT DAY.
Nicki woke up to the sound of her phone vibrating and then falling right off the nightstand. She leaned over n picked it up. It was a text from SB.
ScaffBaby: Hey I have a surprise for you! I'm coming to get u at 1pm be ready ok? :)
NickiBaby: ok but don't be trying no crazy shit lol what should I wear?
ScaffBaby: jeans and a tshirt.. You know, the norm. Go get ready! See u soon. :p
NickiBaby: Can't wait ;)
Nicki got out of bed and looked at the clock. 11:57 already. She knew no one would be home all day so she could just leave. She looked in her dresser drawers to find something cute. She pulled out a white v neck t shirt, some regular snug fitting jeans, and a pink and white belt. She put everything on and grabbed accessories, she grabbed pink earrings and her pink and white plastic bracelets. With that, she went to the bathroom and curled her hair and did her make up. She kept looking at the bruise on her neck. She had covered it with make up but in her mind she could still see it. She finally gave up and left. She stood outside waiting for SB because he was gonna be there any minute. When he arrived, she felt an excited feeling in her stomach. She got up and ran to his car. He got out and opened the door for her.
"Thank you SB"
"You're welcome Nicki"
"Nicki..."
"yes?"
"I have a surprise for you. We are going to see it."
They drove for about 10 minutes when Nicki looked up and saw them sitting outside of SB's apartment.
"Umm why are we here? If the surprise is in your house why didn't you just bring it to me?"
"Haha it's not that simple. Let's go"
SB hopped out of the car and opened Nickis door. He took her up the stairs and before he opened the door he put a blindfold on her.
"You can't see until I get you in front of it."
"ok"
He led her into a room into the house and sat her down. She felt that it was a bed but it was not Safaree's bed. He pulled the blindfold off of her and she screamed.
"SAFAREE OMG ARE YOU SERIOUS?!?"
"Yes Nicki. Only for you."
Nicki looked around. The walls were a pale pink and had big letters over her white wooden bed that said "Nicki's Room". She couldn't believe it. He had turned his guest room into a room for her and he nailed it. She loved it with every fiber of her being. He knew her so well.
"Nicki" "Nicki" "NICKI"
"Oh, sorry. What?"
"Do you like it?"
"SB.... I love it. It's beautiful. How did you know what to do?"
"Nicki.. I know you. I know everything about you. Nicki I want to tell you something."
"Ok and then I have something to tell you too"
He scooted closer to Nicki on the bed and then he grabbed her hand and held it. She was a little confused at this point because she didn't know what to think but she went with it because they were best friends and she trusted him.
"Ok Nicki.. Umm. I was kinda trying to plan my speech but whatever.. Here it goes... I just wanted to tell you that.. When you are away from me, I can't focus. When you are mad at me I can't eat or sleep. When you are at home and I think you are being hurt it takes everything in me not to come over there and get you. What I am trying to say is I love you Nicki.. Not just as a friend. MORE than that. I want to be with you. Hold you when you are in need and give you a kiss goodbye. I hope you understand."
They sat in silence while she took it all in.. *pauz* She was thinking how could she might ruin the moment if she told SB what was happening at home.
"So what did you have to tell me Nicki?" he asked sounding discouraged.
"I'm shocked because that's EXACTLY what I wanted too. I was gonna tell you the same thing."
Just then SB kissed her lips for the first time. It was great. Passionate. He loved every second. He pushed her back on the bed and started sucking her neck.
"No.. No Safaree that hurts.. I mean I don't want to do this right now."
"What? I hurt u Nicki? I'm sorry what did I do?"
"No you didn't hurt me, I didn't mean to say that. I'm sorry."
Nicki felt bad and didn't feel like explaining anything to Safaree so she grabbed his head and kissed him more. She got up and got on his lap.
"I love you Safaree. I love you so much."
She said in between kisses. He loved her back and these kisses were only out of pure love but he was starting to get really aroused. He wanted to stop because he didn't want to have sex with her. He loved her and she was still a virgin.
"ooooh Safaree this is soo good. "
"I know Nicki I love it too but look what time it is.."
It was 10pm. Nicki almost had a heart attack. Her mom gets home at 10 and her dad gets home at 10:30. She was never supposed to even leave the house.
"Come on, I gotta take you home."
SB pulled in the driveway and kissed Nicki goodbye. He waited until she got inside and then he pulled off.
AT NICKI'S HOUSE.
"Onika where have you been?" Nicki's mother asked.
"Oh I had a job interview at 7 and then I missed the bus so I had to wait on Safaree to come get me. I'm sorry mom."
"It's fine but next time please let me know. I don't want you in the streets at night." she said concerned.
"Yes ma'am."
With that Nicki went in her room. When she walked down the hall she saw her dad in his room drinking beer. This was no surprise because this is what he always did but today she felt worried. She was scared. Her heart beated fast as she kept walking to her room. She felt like something would happen tonight... She hurriedly hopped in the shower, washed up and got out. She put on her pink thing and safaree's shirt that said "wanna Minaj". They had gotten their shirts at her first club appearance when she was 16. She was now 17 and didn't do clubs anymore because her mom didn't want her to do them until she was 18 so she had to wait. She was really tired so she slid in her bed and pulled out her phone. She changed Safaree's name to baby because she loved him. He had already changed hers. My Love: Goodnight Safaree. I love you. Baby: Goodnight Nicki. I love you too. :) She layed her phone down and was flipping thru the tv channels. Just then, her door creeped open.....
So I hope you guys enjoyed this! Let me know what your predictions are!!! :)
Tuesday, April 3, 2012
How could it possibly be worse?
Ok! Soooo I hope I am gonna get good feedback on my story! My twitter recently got hacked n I am trying to fix it so if y'all want to y'all can post the link to my story on your TL. I hope you enjoy this! I won't post again until I have 10 comments on both posts! Love y'all :) Xoxo Christine.
"YOU WILL NEVER TELL ME NO ONIKA!" He shouted.
He grabbed her by her throat and said "You will never disrespect me again"
She couldn't believe this. She was ass naked trying to take a shower and her DAD was in the bathroom.
"I'll be back don't you dare move." He said sternly.
She was so scared. She didn't know why he would come back. She heard him pop open a beer. She stood looking in the mirror at the handprint on her neck. How will I cover this she thought. Just then her dad came back in and sat on her bed. Nicki wrapped the towel around her and walked out of the bathroom seeing her dad.
"Take the towel off Onika."
"Dad are you joking?"
"Does it look like I am joking? Drop the towel."
Tears rolled down her face as she thought of what was about to happen. He had never done this. He had beat her, cursed her out, spit on her, everything.. But he never... Touched her. She slowly unwrapped the towel and let it drop to the floor.
"Come closer." he pleaded.
She walked toward him. She was shaking uncontrollably.
"Don't shake Onika, why are you scared baby?"
"Because you're my freakin dad. This is horrible and discusting." she said in almost a whisper.
"No don't think of it that way baby, just go with it."
She was now panicking because she could see the bulge through his dress pants. As soon as she saw it he got up and shut the door.
"You can't be loud or scream or I will have to put something over your face." he said.
He walked up behind her n sniffed her hair. He started fondling her breast. She could feel him rock hard on her back. She wanted to scream so bad. She wanted Safaree to just show up and rescue her. She got pulled out of her thoughts when her dad turner her facing him and unzipped his pants.
"You going to show your daddy a good time Onika?"
"Dad please" was all she could say.
"Touch it" She grabbed it and just held it. He slapped her in her face.
"So you fuck that dumb clown Safaree everyday but you act like you don't know what you're doing?" "STROKE it" he yelled.
She did as she was told and then he said "Put your mouth on it"
"Dad No absolutely not"
"What the fuck did you say?"
"She opened her mouth to speak but he shoved his manhood in her mouth.
"Oh yes baby. Oh my god Onika"
She was horrified. She was discusted. She could throw up any second. This went on for like 10 minutes until he came. When he was done he said nothing. Just grabbed his beer and left. Nicki jumped up and ran to the sink to spur it out and brush her teeth. She looked in the mirror and started sobbing. She couldn't take this anymore. She wanted to die. She went back in her room and pulled out her notebook. She wrote at the top "This is the autobiography of Nicki Maraj" As soon as she wrote it her phone rang. It was Lauren. Nicki sighed as she answered the phone. She was about to tell her best friend about what just happened.
"Hello?"
"Hey Nicki what are you doing? I know it's late but for some reason I felt like something was wrong"
"Lauren I love you so much. I have something to tell you."
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"YOU WILL NEVER TELL ME NO ONIKA!" He shouted.
He grabbed her by her throat and said "You will never disrespect me again"
She couldn't believe this. She was ass naked trying to take a shower and her DAD was in the bathroom.
"I'll be back don't you dare move." He said sternly.
She was so scared. She didn't know why he would come back. She heard him pop open a beer. She stood looking in the mirror at the handprint on her neck. How will I cover this she thought. Just then her dad came back in and sat on her bed. Nicki wrapped the towel around her and walked out of the bathroom seeing her dad.
"Take the towel off Onika."
"Dad are you joking?"
"Does it look like I am joking? Drop the towel."
Tears rolled down her face as she thought of what was about to happen. He had never done this. He had beat her, cursed her out, spit on her, everything.. But he never... Touched her. She slowly unwrapped the towel and let it drop to the floor.
"Come closer." he pleaded.
She walked toward him. She was shaking uncontrollably.
"Don't shake Onika, why are you scared baby?"
"Because you're my freakin dad. This is horrible and discusting." she said in almost a whisper.
"No don't think of it that way baby, just go with it."
She was now panicking because she could see the bulge through his dress pants. As soon as she saw it he got up and shut the door.
"You can't be loud or scream or I will have to put something over your face." he said.
He walked up behind her n sniffed her hair. He started fondling her breast. She could feel him rock hard on her back. She wanted to scream so bad. She wanted Safaree to just show up and rescue her. She got pulled out of her thoughts when her dad turner her facing him and unzipped his pants.
"You going to show your daddy a good time Onika?"
"Dad please" was all she could say.
"Touch it" She grabbed it and just held it. He slapped her in her face.
"So you fuck that dumb clown Safaree everyday but you act like you don't know what you're doing?" "STROKE it" he yelled.
She did as she was told and then he said "Put your mouth on it"
"Dad No absolutely not"
"What the fuck did you say?"
"She opened her mouth to speak but he shoved his manhood in her mouth.
"Oh yes baby. Oh my god Onika"
She was horrified. She was discusted. She could throw up any second. This went on for like 10 minutes until he came. When he was done he said nothing. Just grabbed his beer and left. Nicki jumped up and ran to the sink to spur it out and brush her teeth. She looked in the mirror and started sobbing. She couldn't take this anymore. She wanted to die. She went back in her room and pulled out her notebook. She wrote at the top "This is the autobiography of Nicki Maraj" As soon as she wrote it her phone rang. It was Lauren. Nicki sighed as she answered the phone. She was about to tell her best friend about what just happened.
"Hello?"
"Hey Nicki what are you doing? I know it's late but for some reason I felt like something was wrong"
"Lauren I love you so much. I have something to tell you."
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Only The Beginning.
"You want me to take you home from school?" Safaree asked Nicki over the phone Monday morning. They talked every morning before school and saw each other every day after school because she went to Laguardia and he went to JFK. "You can pick me up from school but I dont want to go straight home." Nicki replied. "Has he been hitting you again?" "No SB I dont know why you keep asking me this, even if he was YOU couldnt do anything about it." "Ok Nicki I am sorry. I'll see you after school. Bye" "Bye". Why does he care so much. She thought...
Nicki got all her stuff ready and went downstairs to get breakfast. As usual no one was home. Jelani had already moved out, Her mom was at her nursing job, Maciah was at school and she didnt know where her dad ran off to. She didnt even care. She made some toast and grabbed some juice out of the fridge then she was off to school!
AFTER SCHOOL
*HONK HONK* "Come on Nicki!!" Nicki ran towards SB's car and got in. "Hey Safaree" "Hey Nicki, how was school?" "It was good, we worked on a new play." "Oh thats nice cant wait to see it, where u want to go?" "I dont care, lets go chill at your house." Safaree lived by himself already because he hated being at home. His whole family was quiet but he was loud. He always felt like the odd one out and they treated him differently. He loved when Nicki came over because that way he knew she was safe. Besides, he loved the company. "Nicki I have to ask you something." "Yes Safaree?" She asked concerned. "Umm I dont want to get into your business at all but umm you have bruises on your leg and some on your arms... and I know that you probably have some under your make up." "Ok well thats not a question." "Nicki I just want to know that you are ok. I told you to call me whenever he is hurting you and to call me when you are scared... You never do." "Safaree I am sorry. I dont want to bother you with something that you cant change." "Nicki..." "Yes?" "Move in with me" "NO.. I mean, I have to think about it Safaree. I have my music and my acting to think about." "Ok but please really think about it." "I will" They went to Safaree's apartment and laughed and joked, watched movies, ate snacks, and just chilled. Nicki looked at the clock. It was 9pm. "Safaree I have to go." "Oh shit, its late, let me get you home"
AT HOME
Nicki walked in the door. She knew her mom would be sleeping and her dad would be home any minute. She rushed in the kitchen to clean it up quickly before her father got home. When she was done she was about to shower and go to bed when she turned around and saw a shadow in the doorway. "Nicki what are you doing?" Her father asked. "Cleaning the kitchen daddy how was your day?" She managed to say. "Do you see what fucking time it is? Why is it 10 at night and you are just NOW cleaning my got damn kitchen?" "I am sorry daddy I went to Thembi's to do homework, I just got home." "Come her now" "Daddy please no.. I am sorry this will never happen again" "If I have to tell you one more time to come here ONIKA..." She slowly walked toward him. "I AM GETTIN SO TIRED OF YOUR BULLSHIT AND YOUR LIES" He yelled. He balled up his fist and punched her right in her face. "Ouch oh my god. Dad I said I was sorry." "I dont give a fuck." He grabbed her by her hair and threw her on the ground and beat her. He punched her legs, arms, face and neck. "I hope you learned your lesson Onika. This is only for your own good." With that he walked away
Nicki ran upstairs to her room and saw that her lip was busted. She wanted to call SB but she didnt. She never wanted to worry him with her problems. She loved him and cared for him deep inside and she never wanted him worried or distraught. She got in the shower and began washing up and looking at her bruises. Just then there was a knock at the door. "Onika please let me in I am sorry"
"Dad I am in the shower you can talk to me later." "No Onika open this door now." "Dad NO I HAVE NO CLOTHES ON." Just then he kicked in the door and flung open the shower curtain... I cant believe he is fucking doing this, She thought...
Sooooooo I know this is short but I am probably posting again tonight... This is just a starter! Let me get 10+ Comments!!! Love yall :)
Nicki got all her stuff ready and went downstairs to get breakfast. As usual no one was home. Jelani had already moved out, Her mom was at her nursing job, Maciah was at school and she didnt know where her dad ran off to. She didnt even care. She made some toast and grabbed some juice out of the fridge then she was off to school!
AFTER SCHOOL
*HONK HONK* "Come on Nicki!!" Nicki ran towards SB's car and got in. "Hey Safaree" "Hey Nicki, how was school?" "It was good, we worked on a new play." "Oh thats nice cant wait to see it, where u want to go?" "I dont care, lets go chill at your house." Safaree lived by himself already because he hated being at home. His whole family was quiet but he was loud. He always felt like the odd one out and they treated him differently. He loved when Nicki came over because that way he knew she was safe. Besides, he loved the company. "Nicki I have to ask you something." "Yes Safaree?" She asked concerned. "Umm I dont want to get into your business at all but umm you have bruises on your leg and some on your arms... and I know that you probably have some under your make up." "Ok well thats not a question." "Nicki I just want to know that you are ok. I told you to call me whenever he is hurting you and to call me when you are scared... You never do." "Safaree I am sorry. I dont want to bother you with something that you cant change." "Nicki..." "Yes?" "Move in with me" "NO.. I mean, I have to think about it Safaree. I have my music and my acting to think about." "Ok but please really think about it." "I will" They went to Safaree's apartment and laughed and joked, watched movies, ate snacks, and just chilled. Nicki looked at the clock. It was 9pm. "Safaree I have to go." "Oh shit, its late, let me get you home"
AT HOME
Nicki walked in the door. She knew her mom would be sleeping and her dad would be home any minute. She rushed in the kitchen to clean it up quickly before her father got home. When she was done she was about to shower and go to bed when she turned around and saw a shadow in the doorway. "Nicki what are you doing?" Her father asked. "Cleaning the kitchen daddy how was your day?" She managed to say. "Do you see what fucking time it is? Why is it 10 at night and you are just NOW cleaning my got damn kitchen?" "I am sorry daddy I went to Thembi's to do homework, I just got home." "Come her now" "Daddy please no.. I am sorry this will never happen again" "If I have to tell you one more time to come here ONIKA..." She slowly walked toward him. "I AM GETTIN SO TIRED OF YOUR BULLSHIT AND YOUR LIES" He yelled. He balled up his fist and punched her right in her face. "Ouch oh my god. Dad I said I was sorry." "I dont give a fuck." He grabbed her by her hair and threw her on the ground and beat her. He punched her legs, arms, face and neck. "I hope you learned your lesson Onika. This is only for your own good." With that he walked away
Nicki ran upstairs to her room and saw that her lip was busted. She wanted to call SB but she didnt. She never wanted to worry him with her problems. She loved him and cared for him deep inside and she never wanted him worried or distraught. She got in the shower and began washing up and looking at her bruises. Just then there was a knock at the door. "Onika please let me in I am sorry"
"Dad I am in the shower you can talk to me later." "No Onika open this door now." "Dad NO I HAVE NO CLOTHES ON." Just then he kicked in the door and flung open the shower curtain... I cant believe he is fucking doing this, She thought...
Sooooooo I know this is short but I am probably posting again tonight... This is just a starter! Let me get 10+ Comments!!! Love yall :)
Monday, April 2, 2012
I'm starting an OnikaFaree story :)
Hiiiiii! I am starting an Onikafaree story you guys! I have a lot of it already written so you will NEVER have to wait for a chapter :) *Side eyes @ItsMarthaBITCH* Before I start writing though, I need at least 10 comments of people saying that they will read it! Hit me up! COMMENT!
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